I've never actually vented here before. You want to know why? Because I feel like that's useless. I want to stay positive for other people here. If there's a more positive environment, then I feel like people can feel happier or safer here. But it's actually kinda hard to do that, from what I've experienced. I think it's high time I let everyone know how I feel. </3 I actually started off here as a happy-go-lucky person who wanted to find where I belonged. I found a roleplay, and roleplayed there for the first few months I was there. I thought I was super cool. I was positive on scratch. Not on purpose, not forcefully. It was how I actually felt there. Little did I know the things that happened elsewhere on the site. My account had more activity on it back then. I was on almost every day, looking for messages to respond to, and things to do. After a bit, I found generations through a friends profile, and joined as a kit named Myrtlekit. Oh. Those were some of the best moments of my life. And then I made another account--a secret one. And after I started to use that account more, I got more comfortable with the place I held there. I had a HUGE drop in activity on this account. And I sincerely apologize for that. And THEN big things happened irl, and I became more disclosed from the real world. Scratch was my only comfort. I made no effort to express that on my secret account, (Which I'm pretty sure only one person knows about?) but on this one, I tried, and tried to stay positive. I tried to help others. I don't think my efforts were appreciated, or done well enough. I had ultimately piled so much pressure on myself, it was hard to keep up with my own life. But--despite that--I continued the way I had always been here. Until I hit the breaking point. I do admit I almost left this platform. I thought I had it bad in september of 2022, but oh so wrong I was. I knew that once it was february of 2023. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I'm taking this down after a bit. No one is going to see this anyway. Literally no one cares. This account seems so dead to people that they never bother to come here anymore. I'm sorry. Because that's just how I see it. [Actually in a great mood right now! <3 I wrote this yesterday, and if you're wondering why I'm posting it, it's because I feel like it. Hehe]
