i’m sorry. for annoying you. talking too much. talking too much about my problems. over reacting. everything. i’m sorry. it just feels AMAZING to have real friends who care abt me, and actually listen to me. but not being able to meet all of you, is just really upsetting. people who know me in real life, AKA @YSF112, my body works differently. usually when people smile and laugh a lot, it means they’re happy. and excited. with me, it means i’m crying inside, dying, and fading away. when i’m quiet. it means i’m genuinely happy, but if i don’t smile a i found this out, not long ago, after dealing with problems at school, basically rumors abt me having a crush on random people, and boys in my class annoying me and harassing me by talking in my language, MY happy, language, that defines who i am. they make fun of it. and i hate it. i hate everything and my life. there’s pain and sorrow behind my smile. but happiness behind my bored face. as a k-pop stan for 2 years, k-pop has been my solitude. BTS making my day. i love each and every one of them, making me feel like i’m accepted for who i am. so yeah, that’s what’s going on in my life. and again. i. sorry, for everything i’ve done. ~Adiba EDIT 8TH JULY: thank you for ur kind comments! thanks to you, i feel much better than before!
