So I've been a little missing in action recently and I fully understand that. My life has been hectic recently. I don't really know when I disappeared off the face of the Earth so I'm gonna start with January when my life started to turn upside down. January: In January I left the farm I'd been riding at for 6 years and quit my working student position there. I already knew where I was going after but it still felt scary and unnatural because of my boss. She didn't like me so in turn made my life horrible while working. Many days I would go home and cry because of how I was treated. I was happy to be out of there but didn't really know what to do so I suffered in silence. February: In February I started at my new farm and got a little less stressed. I started to get overstimulated though in every spanish class and had to leave the class every time. I started to really miss summer camp and Olive Oil and Chicago and started counting down the days till I was back at camp. I also started to be really negative because my doctor found healed broken vertebrae in my spine and I was limited for a little until we figured out a plan of action. I was negative on myself and that made everything worse. March: I failed Biology for three weeks and almost got a detention. I started to push people I cared about away and only let my now girlfriend near me because she was one of the only people that didn't let me push her away. I couldn't figure out how to bring my bio grade back up so I just brought it to a c- and left it there. I started to doubt I'd be able to get into my dream college, Stony Brook University SUNY, for my dream major, Marine Sciences with a focus in Marine Ecology and Preservation, because I was so bad at bio. My friend dragged me to meet my future track coach and her and I clicked and she helped me a lot. April: I got the courage to ask my girlfriend out late April. Before that I brought my biology grade up to a B+ for the majority of quarter 4 until it dropped to a B for the end. I started talking more positively about myself and stopped allowing my ailments to prevent me from doing stuff and I just found ways to work around them. May: A horse I rode passed away and I went backwards with my positive outlook. I did get better in track which helped some with my mental health. My camp countdown helped me keep going. June: School ended and I only had a few more days until camp. I got really excited and started to plan out some talks I needed to have with staff about overstimulation in the dining hall and other stuff like that. July (so far): I went to camp and had the time of my life. I accidentally started an intercamp war because of where I'm going to CIT next year. Camp Favorite staff Olive Oil, Chicago, Bean, Dew, and Otter are going to fight Camp Runels staff Taz and Sabego for me to CIT at Favorite. They don't know I've decided to CIT at Favorite yet. I got nasty shin splints and have a slight greenstick fracture in my left shin but I'm getting better. I started rewriting Halting Movement to make it something I like and want to work on.
Yeah. That's been my life recently. Pretty bad but it's getting better.
