ive spoke about my mental health before but that was like nothing compared abt what im about to rant on, but before i start i just want to clarify, alot of people get confused with narcissim and anxiety, like when an anxiety person says that they feel like people are watching them, they usaully mean it in a bad way, as in they're worried people are judging them or thinking bad about them, not in a narcisstic way. Ok so, Ive had anxiety for a long LONGGG time, social and regular anxiety and if u want an idea of how bad my social anxiety is, i get VERYYYY nervous infront of my grandparents and cousins. Im also very introverted, self concious, insecure, paranoid and Low self- esteem (to the point i hate myself) :p. My mental health is practically fading away. I dont know whats wrong with me but i hate it, i sometimes just cry in my room because im like this. ive also started to think i have the bipolar disorder, which im worried about. I feel like people are watching me all the time and judging me for no reason whatsoever. I wouldnt go far to say I am depressed cause, I have a great life and my parents love me so that great :) ive gotten over my sewer-side-al thoughts though. I think thats why i like drawing though, to put all my thoughts into a picture. Like i said before, im highly self concious and worried of being judged of. I remember once i was in second grade or smth, i was wearing pants that would be tight when i sat down, so i went on the swing and for and after a couple of seconds i looked at my shadow and saw how the pants were tight,and very quickly jumped off, that very moment on the swing, i felt like the world was watching me and felt highly uncomfotable (my awesome spelling B) ) and i think it was then i found out about my whole mental health identity thingy. thats it ;-;
