hi Tati/Tats/IstanstraykidsNT. Whatever you want to call me. i haven't been feeling the best lately ive been thinking abt school starting in a few days and i swear i start to cry i dont really know my times tables/struggle with them my math test scores are realky low to the point where i dont wanna share or else ill sound stupid im getting older getting responsibilities and going through puberty. i feel sad like super super sad its to the point where i just wanna stay in bed, eat look at yt shorts and use the bathroom and thats it i dont really have much motivation to do anything yet i feel like i want to do stuff my parents i feel like theyre a bit rude to me a lot more than usual and the thing thats been crumbling me the most is social issues i dont have friends the person im closest with is my half sister ive had friends before a few years ago in kindergarten and first grade i though that scratch would be a place to make friends i was very wrong i struggle to make friends here too and it hurts a lot bc every person i see has friends and they've been on shorter than me and i dont get it do i not have the qualities? am i too weird? am i stupid? im honest fr crying while typing this this isnt for attention i swear on my grandmas grave. im just really struggling and i feel bad i dont have anyone to talk to bc my parents say i have it good and victim blame me im sorry if i sound like a pick me bc thats my biggest fear when i rant i aplogize if you think of me as a friend and if ur wondering abt my "my friend rates itzy or skz" projs... she left me those projs were there for a bit but i changed the dates to hide it she said i was a bad friend i dont know what i did she was my last friend from kindergarten i miss her im sorry if this was long im just struggling soso much rn thank you for reading this i really appreciate it </3 bye my unexistent fans ♡
im so sorry i just wanna dissappear and no one will miss me. its probably for the best if ur Ella: i miss you so much pls at least tell me what I did i want to be ur friend again. i miss coming into class and see you smile. you taught me how to code on here and a lot more than school could teach me. u were even the first person i came out to. i miss you and im so so so so so sorry that i made you upset but i don't know what i did so pls just tell me what i did wrong. im sososososo sorry. i miss you and i love you you were my best friend Ella
