just a ah- random writing w/ no context!!!!! just read ig tw: idk, but the goal here is going sentimental with a character
I turn the knobs and opened the door, stepping out of the shower. The steam rushed out of the tub and the cool air bit into my skin. I gave out a shuddery sigh and wrapped up in my towel. I walked across the hall to my room before closing the door and laying out the towel on my bed. I tried to ignore the awful pit in my stomache, or the feeling of passing out at any moment as I laid down on the towel. I rolled over on my side. 'You're just being a baby you know...' 'Yeah, well at least babies get affection from family.' '*gasp* Really?? You went /there/!?!?' '*eye-roll* of course I went /there/ you big mope. And quit thinking about the party, snob. Yes, they're having fun without you, the world doesnt revolve around you.' I sigh and roll over again. Head voices are annoying. Especially when you argue with yourself. And even when they had a point, it was even more annoying. I felt myself yawn. I rubbed my eyes, daring myself to sleep. But I knew I wouldnt. I hadn't slept in /weeks/ because of the nightmares. I got up and got dressed, then grabbed my tablet and laid back down on my bed. I went to check Messenger. I smiled a bit, seeing a text from someone important. "good morning <33" I glanced at the time it was sent, sure that he wasnt already awake. But that's because it was sent before 4. In the /morning/. I obviously immediately went out to scold him like a hypocrite. I called him one too. Truth is, all of humanity are hypocrites. We dont always mean to but we are. Humankind also neglects a lot. I ended up telling my best friend more than I wanted to. About my nightmares and crying myself to sleep. The diversions of insecurities and beating myself up about them. To be honest..? It felt kind of nice to have someone listening. I felt my eyes water with those strange, strangled, mix of tears. I had told him about those tears. Not quite happy but not sad, scared tears. I put on Spotify with my three comfort songs. ...and I let the tears fall. I let nature run its course.
