im struggling. started doing sh yesterday refuses any unwanted attention when someone asks if im alright dying mentally on the point of reaching out even when nervous to crying for hours every night sleep deprived shing in the bathrooms at church wanting attention but never gets any so stays quiet unable to function in the mornings isolating myself starving myself and putting myself on strict diets hides all the pain behind a smile too energetic. too bubbly. too happy. what am i supposed to do?! im suffering right now and you can say is shut up, go away? im so upset and you dont even care (probably cause i dont tell u but) i never feel like anyone cares for me. not even my closest friends and family members. i feel like im the outcast here. i know you cant see what my eyes have seen sometimes, but why do i never feel loved, why do i always have this burden on my chest? why do i feel actual pain in my chest when i cry really hard? why does it feel like no one cares and im all on my own to fend for myself
