Hey guys…you’ve probably noticed that I’m hardly active, and am blatantly ignoring comments. It’s true. I am ignoring you guys. I am just so exhausted. Not just physically. Mentally. The shirt I wanted to wear today wasn’t clean, and I almost started crying. I was squeezing my hands so hard. I’m honestly not doing well, mentally or physically. I’m not eating or sleeping enough. I had two sandwiches and a peach to eat today. It’s making me exhausted and so…weary. I don’t have any time to myself anymore. My room hasn’t been clean in weeks. I am ignoring role plays. It just seems so…pointless. It makes me angry that I’m ignoring my friends. I’m sorry. I feel like such a disappointment. I feel like I’m becoming a worse person, always looking on everything negatively. All the people who are so positive are just wearing a mask. It’s not possible to be happy all the time. Or even most of the time, at this point. I just want to hang out with my family, laugh with them, feel like a part of them again. Anyways…if you scrolled to the bottom, good for you. You ignored my meaningless rant. If you’re a bestie, feel free to remind me about role plays or anything else. At this point…everyone else…I don’t really care. I’ve reached the point where I just can’t care anymore. I’m giving too much of myself to others. Way too much. In real life and on scratch.
I’m doing a lot better now, guys, it was kind of just a lot of little things. I think I need to take care of myself better, but I’ll live(which is a comforting thing for me XD). Just to be clear, my eating and sleeping things, are not intentional. My stomach just shrunk while I was at camp, because the food was too rich for me. It is NOT s3lf h@rm.
