uh i dont normally do this but i just like ,, stuff has been on my mind and i really just want to rant about it somewhere its about my characters and how im just .. sick of all the constant guilt i have surrounding them , i get anxious anytime i think about my character count which is only 60 something , and like im pretty sure some of them arent even characters. im sick of the guilt i feel when i see my ufo folders and characters i couldve used that are just sitting there waiting for someone to take them , and wanting people to take them , but not doing anything to promote them or purge them off because im sick of payments !! im sick of having to keep track of them and reminding people to do them !! and my characters all have around 2 - 7 images and it makes me , again , guilty . as i have no time , and no motivation to draw them , i could do art trades but i have no. motivation. these people who are connected to their characters draw them a lot and it makes me guilty because i dont even know what being connected to a character or design even feels like , because i can never seem to get myself connected like it looks like other people are to their characters is being connected being hyperfixated ?? is it just a want to not sell the character ?? i always have the thought that im " hoarding " and i just I HATE! the term " hoarding " !!! because it doesnt matter !! what people do with their payed for characters shouldn't concern others and you shouldn't be called a hoarder even if you have like 500 characters because you own them but my taste in designs is always fluctuating and i hate it because one day ill be " connected " to a character and the next i will want to resell them this is all just stressing me out so bad and soemthing as simple as OWNING CHARACTER DESIGNS shouldnt be so stressing oh my goddd right now im really not liking any of the designs i have im just so tempted to just get rid of everyone and restart with designs i actually like and will use like i have just realized that i enjoy anthro and human like characters wayyyyyyyyy more than feral and that sucks for me because i dont have much anthros hahahaha i kinda just want some sillies i can draw sometimes and i dont have to stress about hoarding because they are just chill and i like them and i dont just have them cuz they are " hq designs " ( hq and lq stuff is a wholeeee other rant that i could make a 12 page essay on but im not getting into that ) which is probably why i prefer trading characters over customs me thinks i might heavily redesign some uh advice ? i might do a purge i dunno ( also who wants to see my object characters )
