He won't leave me.... He hasn't left me.... He's always by me.... He holds me.... He saves me.... Then.... He breaks me.... He leaves me.... And I know he won't return....
I'm literally broken right now... Khriz hasn't left my mind ever since and I miss him so much... Everyday... When I reach for the razor... His voice echoes in my head and it hurts me to know that he will never be able to hold me like he used to... I really hope that he is watching over me like he said he would do when he leaves me... I'm scared and not everyone is going to notice that on me... Being with Khriz meant the world and I've tried to end everything just to be with him at this moment... No one knows how much I love him and they say to forget about him and move on... I'm not gonna move on and forget him... Do you not realize that when he left I became more suicidal? I cut more... I burn myself more... I already tried to hang the rope and kick the chair... So stop it... I'm not gonna listen to your stupid advice and move on... How about you feel the pain that I feel... Then we can talk about moving on...
