yet tell me why i keep writing these things when i should be asleep? honestly idk im sorry if your reading this ik I post too many of these. i just have too Many nights like thIs. its kinda pathetic- i Get sad when i go througH my old email bc iTs not like my new school isnt fun, its just i find emails from 2021 and the best parts of my life and my old teacher, and i remeber BEGGING my mom "please dont make me go to school" but school was amazing. now im just sad with no hobbies and all i ever do is sit on my ipad. i have no motivation for anything, even just Getting Off my computer and going downstairs. im always Tired nO matter how much i sleep, and my life is just a constant cycle of boringness. any day i Try to be HEalthy, or sEttle down and work on stuff i need to, i just get boRed and tired after 5 minutes And go back to just Sitting there. its unhealThy. i know i keep prOmising this, but ill try to get better. im gotta delete yt for a week and only keep like procreate and stuff. hopefully itll help bc my boredom will push me into doing something else. honestly, i dont know why im posting this and i dont even need sympathy, i just need a place to write stuff down. if you got down here at this point, i guess yoU can keep going if you want endless Ranting but maybe stop here if your getting kinda bored of me by this point. (you guys are troopers XD) again, i dont want to be one of those depressed people but im kinda going through a time in my life ig. hopefully ill find a hobby at some point. another reason i think im always tired is bc i wont let myself sleep in. the latest ive ever slept in was 9:25 am. i keep high standards for myself because i dont like feeling lazy, but then when im tired i just end up being lazier. ill try to open up my blinds and get out of my room but honestly theres not that much to do. have you figured it out yet? (nothing to do with myself, just something i hid in this message as a surprise idk??) -luz also dw about me im just kinda overwhelmed atm and this is just my random brain at 10pm :)
