Hey, I've been inactive lmao Okay so I'm typing this on my phone but that's not the point. The point of this update is to well update on my life so far. I'll be blunt. Today, I cried more then I've ever have in my life. And I'm 13 so yeah. I don't do vents often, they aren't for me and I don't like being that attention seeking loser. But I've been having it hard lately. I've been having severe mental issues and my parents aren't exactly helping. I was harassed by two younger kids, one of them even crossing my bondaries, and when I defended myself, the youngest has a whole episode and my parents defended her then me, their own child. I just wasn't having it that I punched a hole in the wall (ouch). They always defend others instead of their own children, yell at us for the smallest mistakes in school (like getting one B), and I feel more like an object to paint them in perfect-parent light then a real human being. If you don't know, I also picked up painting and my parents put a lot of pressure on me over it. I don't like being called "painter girl" in my family's group circle. It's all I'm known for, not for who I am like my personality. I appreciate my parents trying to make me and my brother feel better by bringing my grandparents over to stay with us until January and bringing us to vacation but these days, it rarely helps. Fun lasts for a day and then I'm back to being down. But I love my parents, I really do. I want to show my appreciation for them but from a young age, I had trouble expressing my feelings because of how my parents would react. I'm shy, very shy so when they start telling everyone, even strangers, I start getting anxious. And my brother. I love my twin brother, but he always makes a mess of my belongings, barges into my personal space, and chooses friends over the whole family, including me. And he has officially taken over my own room. The only thing I have left of my former happiness is my stuff animal (some might know who he is). Every time I look at him, he reminds me of the cheerful and carefree person I was before and I just really wish to be that person again, happy. And so to try and get myself together and regain at least a drop of that happiness, I'm going on a break. I don't like taking breaks, Scratch is like a second home to me. This account has been active for over three years, I still remember the day when I created it. But I'm getting off track so to not waste any more of your time so you can go on your day, I'm gonna wrap this up. So to sum it up, I'm going on a break to work on my mental health issues which took me way too long to notice. I love you all, sorry to vent. Have a good day/night <3 (It's almost 10:20 PM over here)
