L e t s g o i n t h e g a r d e n Y o u ' l l f i n d s o m e t h i n g w a i t i n g R i g h t t h e r e w h e r e y o u l e f t i t L y i n g u p s i d e - d o w n W h e n y o u f i n a l l y f i n d i t Y o u ' l l s e e h o w i t s f a d e d T h e u n d e r s i d e i s l i g h t e r W h e n y o u t u r n i t a r o u n d E v e r y t h i n g s t a y s R i g h t w h e r e y o u l e f t i t E v e r y t h i n g s t a y s B u t i t s t i l l c h a n g e s E v e r s o s l i g h t y D a i l y a n d n i g h t l y I n l i t t l e w a y s W h e n e v e r t h i n g s t a y s . . . - - - I can't think straight anymore My mind can't function like before I . . . I'm scared I'm too scared I stumble over my words too much I think too much My body hurts too much School hurts too much . . . my life hurts too much Someone copied my idea, my friends idea, and someone else's idea at school, they never gave credit and claimed the idea's as their own. Even worse, the drawing was almost similar to mine, it was heavily traced, and the other two peoples idea's were only sides. Mine was the main dish. . . Someone blamed me for cheating in a game, when I didn't. Someone used me to their benefit. Someone became my friend, and backstabbed me. Someone . . . someone took something very precious to me away with lies and scams, we made a deal, I give them something, they'll give something else in return. They still haven't repaid me in over 4 years and have done the exact opposite instead. Someone bullied me because of my looks, my art, COPIED my art claiming it as their own, using me to their own benefits, etc. They gave no mercy, and I still get sorta bullied. This person is someone I encounter daily, and they won't leave me alone. Lies, scams, backstabbing, I've seen and experienced it all in my school life. I can't handle it anymore, the weight is crushing me. It doesn't feel good at all, it makes me want to hurl ( which I have ). I can't find good people to be around. Only my close friends I can trust . . . - - - I always thought that scratch was a friendly place . . . I've seen projects that said they were leaving, but they were just trolling people. But, lately, people have been leaving due to hate . . . Is it that bad? Were people just too mean? I . . . I really don't want that to happen to me. Legends have left due to hate or some other reasons, but I'm not leaving yet. I may have to face cyberbullies, but I'm not going to leave. I will face them, with full force. I needed to let this out a long time ago, but I never said anything . . . also, thanks for 30+ followers, you guys are amazing, I never thought that I would have so many followers lol. I'm sorry if this is too depressing, I haven't been feeling great both physically and mentally. To think about, what is a friend? What is a true friend? I don't know anymore. I can see that everyone is venting lol. But ya know? Its good to see others have the same feelings as you, cause in a way it makes you feel good. It shows that you can relate to someone. I think a friend is not only someone you can trust, but someone you can rely on when times are tough. I don't exactly have friends, but I'm fine with that :D Tbh, I have to say that sometimes I feel like a disappointment, and that makes me want to ( oof ) out of this world. I don't know what to think anymore and I'm uh, kind of going insane? I think my brain is fried. Sorry, I wasn't planning on posting a vent, but ya know what? I didn't feel good today, or really any day. I try not to get all emotional, but today was just not a good day for me. Most of that badness was based on the fact that I'm scared for the future hate. . . like I said before, many have fallen under its power. But right now, I will be grateful, grateful for having such amazing people as followers, grateful for being alive, and grateful for meeting so many people. - Skye ps : Don't worry, I'm not leaving :D
