GUYS so Abt my knee it got better, I can limp on it but it still hurts, so I said "oh lemme get the pic from the chalkboard so I can work my knee a little" and so I got up and I limped DUMB JIMMIET SAID "IS SHE WALKING?!?!?!?!1/1/1/1!?!?!/1/1/1" I'm dead XD so I was obvi annoyed so I said "yo. shuddup. what's ur problem. are you dumb?" and then THE WHOLE CLASS WAS LIKE "DID SHE WALK?? IS SHE WALKING??SSHES A FAKER!!!" I wanted to tell them off ;) so I got annoyed and bit my tongue (actually did that I do it all the time I think I have issues) to stop myself for saying something dumb and jimmet was like "why do you use ur crutches when you obvi don't need them" and so I tried to explain I use them to help me when my legs are tired and no one believed me so the next period I was sitting down gigging with my friends and nahla said "(almost used my irl nickname cris) you don't need ur crutches cause you can just walk" and I GOT LIVID and I was like "BUT I LIMP SO WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO? IT HURTS TO EVEN DO THAT" and she was side eyeing me and she said "then limp its not that serious.." and had the NERVE to go and fake limp and throw her arms sideways like this <**>and said "its not that hard" and I wanted to go to the bathroom and cool off and I said to my teacher "yo can I go to that bathroom" and he said "that's not the way ur supposed to ask so I'm not even going to entertain that" I mean that's reasonable so I'm chill with how he acted so I'm not mad so I was talking to my friend on a doc and was saying that I wanted to physically touch someones face with a fist and wanted to tell ppl off
idk but I'm annoyed and kids are coming to my EX TABLE CAUSE I GOT KICKED OUT FROM THE WHOLE FRIEND GROUP NOT JUST THE TABLE TODAYY AND WAS SAYING "ARE YOU FAKING UR INJURY AND I WAS ANGRY AND YELLED "NO IM NOT WHAT WRONG WITH YOU" SO TO COOL OFF I WENT TO THE BATHROOM AND THREW MY CRUTCHES DOWN AND PUNCHED THE BATHROOM STALL lemme tell y'all the reasons why I was kicked :) 1. I'm annoying (I can agree with that but I'm not annoying all the time) 2. I self-diagnosed saying I have depression (I had SH thoughts and DID THEM) 3. I yell a lot (ITS A LUNCH ROOM! HOW ARE YOU COMPLAINING ABOUT ME YELLING WHEN THE WHOLE LUNCH ROOM IS JUST SCREAMING) 4. MY LAUGH (I laugh a lot cause my friend Kayla is ver mush funni and I mush appreciate her) AND GUESS WHAT! MY FRIEND OF *FIVE YEARS* DIDNT DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT! SHE WAS *LAUGHING* LAUGHING OF ALL THINGS AND SHE WAS SPEAKING FOR THE CHICA TELLING ME WHY I AM GETTING KICKED only three of my friends didn't want me to go, *three* of my friends didn't want me to go. *three* of them *only* *three* my friend said they were thinking Abt it but they said they wouldn't do it I have *no where* left to sit the drama kids table hates me the table I sat at today hates me I have one place I might be able to sit but idk I'm angry and I want to fight people. idc if I get suspended I hate myself, i dont know why im like this, i scream a lot, sure, but im very vocal, im annoying, I am getting slammed with people saying I'm faking, MY FATHER AND BROTHER SAY IM FAKING AND IM DOING FRICKING PT AND IT HURTS LIKE HECK I really *really* want to punch something but I have to keep appearances, like I'm happy when I'm angry, sad, disgusted, annoyed. its hard to keep doing this and I'm cracking, I'm not having the childhood of an American kid that so many people have, I would kill for their childhood, their parents fight, sure, but its not everyday and everyday means every. single. day. my parents fight about something, I go and talk about what's happening at school, they say "want me to take care of it" I say no cause its not gonna get better, its gonna get worse, its never going to get better, my mom has finally realized that she needs to divorce my dad and I'm all for it, I don't care about him cause he doesnt care about me or my brothers, he cares about his stupid plants and "grass" and I am very tired, I want to go home, not home where I live, but somewhere that I feel safe, cause that's what home is, but I don't have anywhere, my friend kayla said she can talk her parents to let me stay for a while and I might take her offer on that. I'm sorry I keep venting. I feel like I'm being an attention seeker but I just need advice and I need to get this out my system, I'm still angry and want to punch someone but I cant. I'm sorry I keep venting, its not fair.
