(if tytping is funky its cause i have acrylics on) no cause the entirety of skz admiring chan has me crying- they're so close and it makes my heart happy ong i admire them in so many different ways- not only are they inexplainably talented, theyre really the only ones who keep me sane. theres something that pulls me to them and everytime i watch anything related to them i cany help but be happy im slightly emotional right now and i just watched a video of skz telling chan what they admire about him and it made me long for the feeling of being cared about as much as chan cares for his members. you can literally feel the love he has for them through the damn screen and thats so special theres a guy in my geo class that has been there for me despite all the stuff he's been throigh. hes come to school crying before but he still made sure to write me a note asking what was wrong because he always seemed to notice when i was upset. he's becoming one of the most important people in my life but i cant tell him that because that sounds incredibly pathetic. i like him, i really do. but i cant like him because im supposed to be liking the boyfriend that asked me out the day i shared the hu-meme. ive already lost feelings and i dont know how to tell him- im human and i feel things but this seems extremely harsh and unforgivable stray kids -- i appreciate you on so many levels. you have no idea how much i love and adore every single one of you individually. you've become one of the only stable things in my life and words cant express how badly i want to meet you, not even as a stay but on such a personal level note :: just broke up with him and now im the worst
