Oct 1- I've been "debating" some thoughts..... a lot of this represents something... the beginning is the "humor" i use to hide it all... the end is that one thought constantly in the back of my mind... don't worry this ain't happening........ anytime soon anyway. Oct 18 - I've been really tired lately... Many of the people I know use me as a therapist sometimes all those thoughts and feelings add up and mix together with my own.... Oct 29- I'm just really tired, honestly my friends are my only anchor of sorts stopping me from doing this. Nov 16- Am i good enough?? Was I ever? No.... Haha now I'm not only talking to myself im also typing. Nov 17- Maybe i am crazy maybe i should do it. my heart hurts... my entire body hurts so much. Nov 18- I CAN'T DO THIS CRAP ANYMORE.... i should just end it shouldn't I? No, yes no yes...... Maybe i am mental... I haven't cried or shown real emotion in years.... it hurts after so long. Nov 19- It's gone? I think. Nov 21- Heh my friend left scratch and its probably my fault... I am an idiot. a damn idiot. Ok never mind I was just overthinking it. Dec 11- Am I a bad partner? I probably am... I should have just dealt with that correctly, I'm an idiot Don't worry I won't do it this is just somethin to releave myself
I'm gonna list the things i have: Depression Anxiety Mood swings personality disorder (DID) ADD extreme insomnia I'm also extremely apathetic and indifferent... Tics (Funny thing is it's exactly like my favorite creepypasta Ticci Toby's tics)
