I don't know when it will stop I've broken my own heart again this is just based on my life over the years from beaten and bruised I've overcome that many people stole my heart and broke it I've tried and tried again to fight for a better life but nothing ever changes thats why I might give up I can't do it anymore no matter how much I try life won't give me a chance no matter how much I try to fix my past mistake god won't let me I've never felt sorry for myself I felt I deserved it all I felt it was my fault others didn't like me but I realized it was because of the way I treated myself I started to feel sorry for myself sometimes but most of the time I would work so hard that I would barely sleep I pushed myself so that is why I am retiring hopefully god lets me live in peace and hopefully all all be fine without me besides I can't feel pain anymore not after everything I was put through this is my goodbye to all of you.