⌦ 003 ★ ❝ a new feeling ❞ ✧ ೃ༄ aspenfaith srp

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yes. first srp!! i've been waiting for this, just had no reason to or no motivation either, but now, yay!! let's get into it! --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Aspenfaith woke with a start. The glow of the moon was creeping into the warrior's den, and he could see shapes of sleeping cats, all looking like one he couldn't get out of his mind. Why couldn't he stop thinking about Mistedocean? They were best friends. Now he felt so... alive around her. He didn't know why the sunset seemed ten times brighter when he watched it with her. But suddenly he knew, and he knew he knew because it was so obvious, the way he talked about her and the way he always wanted to hang out with her, the way he loved her personality and her gray splotches and her blue and yellow eyes and her smile... Stop. He needed to stop. But why? Why did he feel like it was bad to like her? Why? He needed to stop thinking. Just shut off his thoughts. He buried his head in the moss, his eyes watering as his face felt hot. "StarClan, help me.." he mumbled. Allies. They were allies. Allies. He breathed a tiny sigh of relief. He decided to get up and walk out of camp. Stupid, maybe, in the freezing cold night with his short fur and height, so he /definitely/ felt the wind, cutting into his fur like a ice-cold knife. He shivered, but thinking about Mistedocean warmed him. He knew it now, and he didn't want to hide it anymore, to shove it under all his feelings and act like it didn't matter, like it wasn't there, peeping out whenever he saw the she-cat's eyes... He liked Mistedocean. Or he was beginning to, and it was more than a friend, but he knew it now, he knew how to feel. He didn't have to be afraid now. He knew it. He blinked, his eyes watering. "I know it now, and I can feel how I want to feel." he told himself, his chest warming. The little fluff on his head fluttered in the breeze, as the rosy clouds of dawn started to peek out above the treetops, and as it rose it rose with Aspenfaith, with this newfound feeling. Because he didn't have to be afraid anymore. He knew it now. And he loved it so, so much. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------- yess >:DD first self-rp!! relization? i mean, he always knew, but he always felt like it would be shamed upon, but now he feels comfortable with liking bluejay :D <333