ix. the hermit

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ミテ ミテ あなた方見てみて Look! Look! All of you, you better look at me! The Hermit (IX) is the ninth trump or Major Arcana card in most traditional tarot decks. It is used in game playing as well as in divination. Reversed card (keywords): Exile, Loneliness, Misfit, Sadness, Withdrawing from loved ones Upright card (keywords): Introspection, Meditation, Self-reflection, Solitude, Soul-searching, Withdrawn from society Meaning: The Hermit suggests that you are in a phase of introspection where you are drawing your attention inwards and looking for answers within. You are in need of a period of inner reflection, away from the current demands of your position. chirrup's current position and complixations in life drew her closer to seek for meditation and a way out, yearning to find her 'true self' in which she thought of something that has to be positive; that the melancholic nature she embodies isn't actually her final phase but some kind of curse she's stuck in. gaslighting herself and forcing purr to believe that target is close to her and she's soon reaching her goal if she just follow the flow of life's pace, she thinks and dreams of how purr is making progress when in reality it did nothing but support her thoughts more on her being stuck at square one. (fun fact she is) thinking and thinking and seeing the perfect, well embodied self imaginary of her being unreachable and waving goodbye breaks her apart, since all she's done is wish for an upgrade yet not take any steps to actually reach it. "you only seek for appreciation and admiration, recognization of how you exist in this life by only dreaming about it and not moving an inch." "just look at everyone else, they're doing much better than you and you only stood as frail as ever by comparing what they have to what YOU have. you didn't learn from your mistakes that what you've been doing was the original source of your breaking point." ああ みんな みんなやってんな Ah, everyone’s doing it 今 救われてみた流行ってんな Being saved is currently trending そうだ ぼくもやるか That’s right, I should do it too だって当然 生きてんだ 今も救われたいね I mean, it’s obvious. I'm alive, so I still wanna be saved "i want to be saved! i want to be saved!" is what chirrup dreams of. "where is the person who wants to save me?" is the recognization she seeked. those evolved from "i want to be flawless! i want to be just like /them/!" and "where is the person who appreciates me?" hopeless that she's now living alone, building a negative and soaked perspective of herself since the start of youth. by spending most of her time alone and not having a special someone to depend herself over, nor lead her life actions correctly, purr feels completely out of reach from perfection and what true 'peace' is. isolation and idealization of excluding herself and acting passive to this world bloomed. from wanting to be known and recognized to the need to feel forgotten. that's why she's now a Reversed Hermit. the lamp of truth isn't lit, (and ofc bro is reversed) symbolizing her feeling of being lost and no interest in fixing herself anymore, believing she's doomed to be stuck in a pathetic state like this. "what's the point of searching for an escape, if i can't get myself to move from this deep point? if i'm cursed then why can't i accept my fate? aren't i a horrible person?" not that she doesn't want the emotion of feeling content and happy, just that purr feels as if she's gonna be trapped here forever like she's helpless. yet deep inside as if a cage was about to break, yearning and thinking of good things to happen in melancholic disguise. "technically it's all my fault." if she'd improved as a person in general and build up a good persona, possibly things wouldn't be like this. if she'd seen herself as worthy to improve when she was a youth, and live up to people's expectations at the beginning, mayhaps 神のミテ 我々あなたにオテ 行かないで 行かないで ねえ The look of God. Our hands to you. Don't go, don't go, please. (rain world reference btw:) the symbols shown on the card are (on the top and bottom card border) karma 1-4 on top and mixed karmas on the bottom. there's survivor (karma 5) and max karma at the bottom symbols on the reversed card though are (from top to bottom): - the wanderer - the nomad - within time - closure - echo - the saint they fit cheeb but something about them needs extra analysis lol. good thing i am cheeb mother so i know everything but i'll leave it to you guys chirrup being a pacifist is something that kind of has nothing to do with what's been written, but it's because she yearns for peace away from the thoughts of her mind that she'd labeled as her own enemy. purr thinks that declaring peace would bring her to good in god's eyes (hence the saint, but there's more) and maybe lead her to good fortune and escape from her problems sadly though the saint is breaking apart since she feels as if she's not accepted in god's eyes (starclan) and that nothing's helping her. so it doesn't matter much yet pacifism still affects her