ok this is a continuation of the box below, read notes and credits because that’s where it starts. only wrote here second because i reached max words :3. May 23 2025: 9 days of school left. and i take it back. i know it. our story is over. she’s been taking over my mind recently, i can’t go a day without thinking about her at least five times and i’m not exaggerating. worst of all, my field trip to the aquarium was yesterday and i am mentally a mess. the whole grade was split into two groups and of course i had to be in hers. it hurt so bad seeing her with her other best friends and her bf when WE were supposed to be together all day, us two. she took over my mind the whole trip, to the point it was nearly impossible to enjoy. god i don’t know if i can do this any longer. all while she doesn’t even look in my direction. i wouldn’t take her back but i just can’t help but miss her. she had her bf and her OTHER best friends to fall on when we stopped being best friends and i’m just stuck here alone. i wonder if this feeling will ever go away. life is unexpected though, we’ll see what happens. May 30 2025: haah.. life sure is unexpected!! we are friends again. :) she reached out first and i couldn’t help but accept her back. i really did miss her but technically we became friends on may 28th! im REALLY SO SOSOS HAPPY we are friends again!! we aren’t BEST friends yet but i think i’ll ask her to be my best friend on the last day of school/friday which is in 5 days!!! i’ll miss her sm we arent going to the same school next year… i actually love julie so much im SO glad we’re friends again. <3. i’ll update her answer the day of!! cya guys later!! July 1 2025: Oh this is kind of hard to explain.. It’s always something when it comes to us lol. so basically she left me waiting for her to sit tg at lunch that day because her other friends had something important to tell her and i ended up not giving her the note and i don’t feel like explaining in detail but long story short we ARE bsfs now and she found out abt the note and bracelet today because we talked about it and turns out,,, PLOT TWIST.. SHE KNEW I LIKED HER FOR THAT LITTLE AMOUNT OF TIME OUR WHOLE FRIENDSHIP. SHE KNEW THE WHOLE TIME. APPARENTLY SHE HEARD IT FROM ONE OF MY FRIENDS. SHE CONFESSED IT BC WE WERE ON THE TOPIC OF BEING HONEST AND WE BOTH WANTED OUR FRIENDSHIP TO HAVE NO LIES. HONESTLY?? IM SHOCKED BECAUSE I FOUND THIS OUT NOT EVEN AN HOUR AGO OUR TALK WAS NOT EVEN AN HOUR AGO. ANYWAY?? SEE YOU NEXT TIME?? THIS PLOT TWIST WAS ACTUALLY CRAZY DUDE. November 1 2025: alright. i keep telling myself every time that it will work out between us. i know now that it’s not true. it’s really over this time. this started on October 10 2025. I am only now writing about it because I’ve completely accepted it. okay, here we go again. so on October 10th, i was on my alt account on tiktok looking at her spam account and saw that she had posted with this girl we both have history with,,, and not the good kind. like, that’s not the bad part, i was well aware they were friends and i knew everything blah blah blah. but when i saw julie had posted with her, i thought, “hey i actually don’t remember seeing her story on my main account. how funny would it be if she had me blocked..” and she did. she had blocked me on my main account. but she only blocked me on her spam. i still had her added on her main account and secret account. so naturally, later that day i confronted her because that’s who i am, and instead of owning up to her mistakes and apologizing, she denied everything like a coward. after that, we were not talking but we still had each other added on our socials. reference to July 1 2025, what ever happened to being honest in our friendship huh julie? anyway, after 5 days and some thinking + reflection, i decided i would block her. for good. and this time i mean it. December 1, 2025: so. this is sort of embarrassing. yesterday, julie sent me a text apologizing and i decided to forgive her so… we’re kind of friends again… it’s okay. i’ll just make sure we STAY friends this time.
HER NAME IS JULIE BTW.. :3 december 5 2023, I dont think I like her IDK WHAT WAS GOING ON WITH ME I THINK I JS WANTED TO BE HER FRIEND december 19 2023: I DO LIKE HER I LIKEHER I DO LIKE HER JSBHDSBFVKBEFVK August 8 2024: after this we became really good friends although we barely talked at school (we were both shy.) long story short, we are no longer talking (or friends.) the other "girl" i liked has transitioned into a boy, i still love them so much <3. I do think about the other girl from time to time though. September 20, 2024: I did really miss her really bad and I lied when I said I thought about her from time to time, it was a lot, and I mean A LOT. especially when school started, but I think I'm fortunately over her!! I do notice when she's gone and look at her a lot, but it doesn't hurt as much as it used to. yippie! :3 p.s, I know no one reads this, but i'll update if anything else happens!!! :} November 13, 2024: well. i'm currently writing a really long apology letter to so called Julie. As for the boy, we don't really talk anymore and I feel us drifting farther apart every day. If I told 2023 dec. me that I would no longer be talking to Julie or the boy as much, I would have laughed in your face. anyway, i'll update if Julie replies in any way to the letter which I'm giving her tomorrow. November 14, 2024: BIG UPDATE. long story short, julie forgave me and we’re friends again!!1!1!1! as for the boy.. its getting so much worse i miss them and its so hard to see them giving all their attention to my friend, especially when i have rlly bad jealousy issues. anyway, im super glad julie is my friend again11!!!1!!1 >_< i don’t think there is anything else to update on besides me repeatedly saying that we’re not close anymore and that i miss the boy, i have a feeling something really bad is going to happen. as for julie, i have a feeling everything will go uphill from now on, hence why i don’t think ill update anymore. but who knows, anything can happen, so ill update if anything ever does happen. goodbye!! <33 (and thank you for coming along on this journey of mine!!) December 10, 2024: well. I didn't want to update after november, yet here we are. short update. november me was right. the boy and I are no longer close. they can go a full day without even looking in my direction. when did it all go wrong? did our friendship mean nothing to you? gosh I'm trying so hard to ignore them but it's extremely difficult when i have attachment issues and was attached to them. I wish I didn't have to update and we were best friends. I wish they prioritized me like they do to B. well. as for Julie, we are getting closer and closer everyday that goes by!!! love that girl so much <333 :3 March 27, 2025: well. i'm back. some stuff has happened... the "boy" isn't trans anymore so they are a girl! besides that, I don't feel very distant with them anymore, for some weird reason?? well, with julie, lets just say I messed everything up and we aren't talking anymore. It's always me huh, WHY DO I MESS EVERYTHING UUUPPP NUGRRGRHGRHHFHRBJHBFCKBKE. knowing myself, i'll probably be back, so, until then. May 6, 2025: well.. this is embarrassing but here we are again. small update for the girl she is one of my closest friends now :) throwback to nov 14 2024 when i wrote “as for julie, i have a feeling everything will go uphill from now on, hence why i don’t think ill update anymore” OH BOY WAS I WRONG. ugh.. for julie.. ill try to summarize this as much as possible. here we go. so basically i apologized to her before and we became friends but some time after that i started feeling like i was the one starting the convos so i decided to stop talking to her first and stop asking to call. that whole time we didn’t talk at all. i confronted her and then she barely acknowledged my point and started flipping it onto me?? she said stuff like “oh ive been feeling uncomfortable recently thinking abt all the times i cried when it wasn’t my fault and you make me feel rlly bad” like?? what..? okay that’s mostly valid but all i was doing recently is not talking to her first i haven’t done anything?? and after all those things all ive done is genuinely apologize and apologize so idk why she’s mentioning that when I was talking to her about how i felt.. she said she didn’t wanr to be bsfs anymore but we could still chat. and she was acting so flipping dry?? im js gonna match her energy bro if shes dry then so am i. bad thing too i have an aquarium field trip coming up and we were supposed to sit on the bus tg and be together the whole day so.. urgh..anyway my point is that i genuinely think this wasn’t my fault this time so im not going to say sorry to her or talk to her again unless she decides to do so first. until then, because i doubt this story’s over. May 23 2025: 9 days of school left. and i take it back. i know it. our story is over. i’ll continue in the instruction column above, i’ve finally reached the max word limit.
