cant anymore ughh so tired all the time and then i feel bad cus i barely get any homework but im so tired and everyone is so skinny and i tried eating less but its not working i just want to cry 24/7 i cant draw anymore i cant write anymore i dont want to but i cant complain so much at school because im gonna get judged so tired i want to stay first chair for trombone but it feels like os much pressure and science makes me want to jump out the window or drown myself in one of the fish tanks there with the rotting corpses of the fish and snails like they need to throw those out and there's this one girl she's so so annoying but she's so skinny and i want to be skinnyt oo i wish i was prettier my friend says ill look good with longer hair but im not so confident i feel like i only really anjoy myself with my closest friend i feel like im putting up a "fake" more "supportive" version of myself for others its so hard trying not to be selfish idk how people do it naturally its so hard i wish i could just be happy all the time i cant stop comparing myself to other people
