just a quick vent ahaha. im so scared. i wanna go to college but i also dont wanna go to college at the same time. like i wanna get my education but im scared of having to leave my country to study. dont get me wrong i like the idea of studying abroad, but im so scared of leaving behind all my friends and everything i've built up here, im just scared my friends will forget me if i dont see them much, even if we still contact each other online. most of the people i know are going to local universities that are all nearby, so it would be ideal if i could study here, but when the time comes for me to leave i just dont know what i'll do. gosh everything is so scary. like i have to choose exactly which courses to study NOW and if i dont my future will be ruined. it's so much pressure especially considering i only just turned 15, im terrified that i might not be mature enough to make the right decision, so i just keep doubting myself and procrastinating choosing a university. and january is so close. ahhhhhhh im so stressed out
