Why my past actions have been bad

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uhm yeah there are a lot of things happening so im gonna explain why they are making my actions seem really bad this was written when i was really tired okay so uhm i had a best friend we were friends for like a couple years and then she always made me say and do weird things at school so obviously i did them but then as i got older i realized she was just controlling me but then i continued because if i stopped she would stop being my friend and she was the only friend i had at that time. then i had another friend and then i made my best friend meet her. but then my best friend always just hurt my friend and that kind of hurt to watch that and then my best friend would always break my stuff and then never apologize. and then she even broke my friends thing and just said it was garbage or something. then i was playing with my best friend one day and i showed her a new stuffed animal i got it was a spooder but then we were sitting on my bed and then i showed it to her and she said "ugly spider" and then threw it off the bed. my friend from earlier in this story made me a sticker for my chromebook, and then when my best friend saw it she was like "uhm nice sticker" in a weird voice that made it seem like she didnt like the sticker and she thought the art was bad or something. this is getting long so let me wrap this up. she lied to me multiple times and laughed at me and my friend (from earlier in story) and then when i told her she would never see my friend again she said "why" and i replied with "because you always hurt her" and then she said "i never hurt her, i would never do such a thing" so basically lying to me multiple times, hurting my friend, disrespecting my stuff, laughing and judging me and my friend, and also not mentioned in this story earlier: saying rude things to my friend. okay that is one of the reasons now more!!!! yay totally ughhhh washdyuwasbuidbqwasi (WARNING: Talks about very violent death please skip over if you dont wanna read about it) okay so basically on someones project they apologized for saying stuff about the cat in blender thing and i commented about how it was not okay to say that, was reminded it was an apology project then yeah... then someone else... let's call them "Person 1" so person 1 found out about my comments on the apology project, and also found out that my 2 cats died and then they started telling me it was my fault for them dying, saying things like "they hated you so much they wanted to die" and stuff and then later they said "they are dead because i put them in a blender" and "i put them in a blender" and stuff. on one of my projects after they said stuff about the blender thing, they said "whrrrrrrr" as if to copy the sound of a blender, they harassed me multiple times about this blender thing and person 1 and someone else (who apologized for their actions) went on my project with art i worked very hard on said "ew what is that thing" and stuff like that, i didn't feel like drawing after that. next reason so basically my parents force me to do really hard tasks sometimes and i just cant and then they will make fun of me for it, but i force myself to do those tasks anyway because then they will take away my stuffed animals (i am really obsessed with stuffed animals) so i do anything to keep them from harm. okay another reason is i always have really bad days and everything in my life kind of sucks especially this past year and like i'm always really mad about my bad days and then i get mad at everyone for my own bad days so like i'm always mad because that reason so uhm sorry about all my awful past actions, in the future i'm planning to be better since i've been working on it and i'm a lot better for controlling this stuff now so yeah byeeyeeudbyedbyurb3weusbdfu3ewibdsuhfj4wed34teeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee dies of SLEEP noooooooooooooo wahhwahsuihqwuih 39ih3weinht93i owejiotj3we im triedp 3wedlolllll owpjoj3 32 nion2 23ij90wef92309034 theres more reasons but im tired LOLLLLLLLLLL