dont comment relate pls. associating yourself is rude. ✰ - audio is from my ekitten (/JJJJJJJJJ) @x-Sprout-x!! istg im not copying @visforvandette i coded this vent like 2 days ago ✰ - honestly not sure if this is a vent or not hahaha this is such a good trend to vent to thp quite literally, nothing is new, and im honestly tired of it i have nothing to focus on in life other than school, its caused me to be super clingy to certain people cough edited every frame of this but it was honestly kinda easy bc i stayed up super late last night and did it :3 people in the background: @x-sprout-x @jaxi3hexrts @visforvandette @littlemissmatch @_-charlie_- @lxciia_ ✰ - by the way may sure you say goodbye to @hxneyblissq_ :( - ✰ - TW: some not great topics down here >< ✰ - Rahhh im so tired, I feel like i havent done anything in a really long time, it’s killing me. i can’t stand it. I think im uhh emo again. lately I’ve been like really disliking myself, specifically my body, eating habits and things going on in my life. i feel like the only way of coping is being with friends. another thing is though, im so worried that when im older I’ll look back at myself and think ‘wow i was an idiot, such a stereotype to only trust your friends/online friends’ and that is holding me back so much. Im worried I’ll regret decisions i make now and i can’t stand it. another thing, i wish i could just have a normal childhood; im tired of all my parental controls, i dont even care if my parents see this anymore, im done. i feel so limited compared to everyone else. i feel like i dont even have a reason to be ‘emo’, i have a good life, i eat every night, i go to school, my family isn’t rich but we’re not poor, so why should i be upset? i havent really experienced a lot of trauma in my life other than some stuff from when i was younger, but is that even considered trauma? im also worried i have absolutely no depth, people only like me because i do things for them, because im a people pleaser. I guess i have some trust issues as well. With some people im way too trusting, and others i wont let in at all. i have so many great people in my life and yet i feel so alone. thank god i have Oscar (my cat) (we’re going to die alone together) i feel like im different but in a bad way, and i know im going to regret saying this in like two minutes because thats the most stereotypical thing I’ve ever said, but i guess its the truth. i wonder if i looked different and if i had a different childhood if i wouldnt be so unhappy. another thing im super worried about is people thinking im copying them (specifically Mikey and Archie) i promise i try not to sometimes i subconsciously just do it im trying to fix that, i get to obsessed with things and then i make that thing my life, im really sorry ok that was a major trauma dump right there some of that stuff I hadn’t even admitted to myself this
