if my family doesn't like me causing problems for them, then why don't i just leave? my mom literally told me that im the cause of most of the family's problems (or something like that). i mean, like i said, i can just leave and not come back maybe. i can call a friend to pick me up, or even just wander from place to place, be wild and free like a wolf. should i really do it? is running away the best choice? i mean, it would maybe be for the best, since my parents wouldn't have to spend all their money trying to keep me away from spine surgery, and my sister wouldn't be angry at me for taking an hour to get ready for school in the morning (she also gets annoyed at the fact that she doesn't have time to do anything in homeroom or wherever the heck she goes to. it's better than actually being late, so stop complaining). my family also complains about me being "slow." well dam, sorry that you guys like to live in the fast lane and i like to take my time on things. you guys wouldn't have to worry about that if i leave, will you? and no one really seems to care about (or even notice) my existence, so no one will care if i leave, right? does anyone actually care? should i run away? maybe i should they'll get over it, maybe even forget i was there to begin with
sorry if you actually read the whole thing and it stops making sense. i tend to not make sense when im venting, so sorry again.
