Before I say anything, let me be clear, i only want forgiveness. I know that even that is alot to ask with the pain and hurt i have done to you guys. You guys don't have to listen to this explanation, but here we go. This all started when Mastermode came out as trans on scratch in may. I was just finishing with finals and my sister picked me up when I got a text from parker saying that Lane said your trans now. I pushed it off as a joke from him, but my curiosity got the best of me, so i checked your scratch. I was shocked, and i was confused. I come from a very homophobic household, to the point where we try not to associate with my dad's side since his step brother is Gay. anyways, my whole world turned upside down, and i cried myself to sleep for a whole week because i didn't know what else to do. Over the summer, i put you on the backburner of my mind, as I thought that maybe this isn't real, or I misread it. It came back a month into highschool. Parker decides to bring up your scratch again, and says "Hey, why don't you contact mastermode and tell him he is crazy" I didn't want to do that immediately, but the confusion from you coming out was still fresh, so i helped him. I decided to come up with the whole "Bisexual furry" thing because of my love of everyone and animals. I have always felt like cats and foxes represent me better than me, so i just went with it. After i told you the truth over text (which parker wrote most of btw) I had this rush of guilt and adrenaline that happens when you do something wrong. I pushed it aside, and just tried to keep on waiting. Over time, parker kept on pulling me back to "torment" you because he thought it was funny. I never once laughed at you over this. I would sincerely like to say that I am sorry, and that the world would be better off if i ended it right now. Also, parker thinks your perma banned, so he won't see this and get mad at me for telling you. I just want to say that Mastermode, there is a reason why i was one of the few people in our friend group that was truely sad when you left, as I always saw you as more than a friend. Sincerely, Derb
