im gonna try to make this simple and straightforward. its so hard to say this but i swear i am actually leaving this time. no more coming backs. i know i did things wrong by saying i was coming back but this time is genuinely serious. reasons: 1. i just broke my laptop . my mac just broke down now i dont have a computer. i also dont want to go through and download the fonts all over again. all of my progress is lost. unless i can find a way to restore everything or fix the problem, i will not be returning. 2. the aesthetic comm is becoming too much of a kpop comm. as much as i love kpop theres honestly too much going on abt it and its so much more different than before. i really miss the old community where there would be so much less drama and things related to kpop. really this is just becoming a kpop community honestly. i absolutely love kpop but it seems like every project has to be kpop related or contain kpop music. I miss the old times when people would just use the classic aesthetic lofi music. 3. losing my macbook is everything. if my macbook is actually broken,, i wont want to re-download all the fonts on pixlr e all over again. update: i have a new macbook now, but that doesn't mean im coming back bc its too much work to download all the fonts again 4. stress + too much work i feel that from school is already enough work on scratch i have to always post otherwise my acc is basically ded ive also always felt like i have stress bc i never get enough time to finish my work 5. the aes comm is starting to lose its popularity that also means that if i create a project theres no chance anyone will look at it, bc most of the "og" scratchers have left. (eg. @astro-tears, @bubble-frog - semi left)p any of the scratchers i look up to have left or deleted their account. most of my online friends on scratch have left, so theres no purpose to be here anymore. 6. it takes too much time to post a proj ill still be posting on my vlog acc (@-dolliette-) but i will not be active on this account. it takes way to much time to make a thumb, desc, bg, layout, and code. nowadays i dont have the time and energy to do that. i feel like im starting to get burnt out from creating. 7. projects that take a lot of time but nobody sees i recently posted the "300+ bnr contest," but obviously theres no one wanting to join,, so that was discouraging its kinda like the arcade shop by nowadays i feel like everyone in the aes comm is struggling to gain the recognition they deserve 8. I'm starting to feel lazy i kind of feel like that some of the projects i post are starting to get lazier and lazier bc ngl but nowadays i never feel like the projects i post have anymore worth. 9. just look at the aesthetic community now. its changed so much but not in the best way. I'd say the new aesthetic community is rather toxic than the past one. from now on,, ill be gone on here, but my vlog account will still be active () if you are viewing this project, YOU are what made this account possible to grow, so ty <3 if i leave that doesnt mean my projects are gone, i just wont be posting anymore or answering any more questions. i give one request: please dont ever forget me being here, and please dont steal anything from me even though im gone. i'll be posting rants on this acc if I really feel the need to but otherwise i'll be gone signing out.... || 12.21.23 <3 - mel ♡
