I wish i had an in person partner so bad. or that i was able to talk to my partner more often but i cant. they live across the ocean from me. with my exes, i found ways to communicate more frequently, but i cant with my current partner. and i love them, so much. its not a problem of them not being enough or anything. its just the constant need for love and attention. sometimes i wish my ex would answer my texts. or calls. but i hate them. or do i? they hardly did anything wrong and i dont think THAT I did ANYTHING. but she still feels the need to hate me? i was barely harsh on her at all, at least at first. it was when she started to argue that she never did anything. at first i just wanted a break. for me. for my mental health. but looking back,our relationship was toxic as HELL. and any one of my close friends can confirm that. and now, i just am kinda just deciding who to have a "crush" on, just to say i have one. i dont even know if i actually have one. and i always rush into relationships. i just dont even know what to do at this point.
sorry for any spelling errors. taco bell.
