im pretty sure i messed up my relation with b and c. now b's blaming herself for the fight even though its not her fault. i wanna k__l myself cause of this. i shouldnt though. i know n and e still l0ve me. but c and b probably dont. everythings my fault at this point. every. single. thing. why do people even l0ve me? im just a freak. useless, stupid freak. c probably wants to break up with me. of course they do. im just useless to them anyways. i never respond to them on magma so of course they hate me. i have no idea about b though. she probably hates me as well. nothings her fault though. not the fight, nothing.
