so... recently i've been getting less and less interested in scratch. i feel like i put in too much effort to not gain anything, and as a result i've lost my drive...and sadly, some of my passion for coding as well. i still like it. i mean, imagine having the power to create anything you can imagine? but game developing is time consuming, and lately i've realized i won't get what i'm looking for out of scratch. i don't plan to leave fully because i still have so much unfinish business here. the thing it i think that business will stay undone, at least for right now. it's just not worth it to me anymore, so i'm not gonna bother and make my self do it guiltily bc i feel like i owe someone a game, when i don't. my reality is i'm not getting paid for this. and the best thing that could happen is that i get a little bit of popularity. but for what? i don't get anything but the few likes and follows. i don't make anything off of it. so...i started a youtube channel. i don't plan to share it, since it's not related, and besides, i don't really want it having a connection to this anymore. anyway, i've made a channel, and i make basketball edits, and i've had some success in the last month. my goal is to monetize and use that money for my own things. overall, i think i'm done. but i'm not really leaving either. i don't plan to come back anytime soon. but whenever i do, i won't guarantee any projects or game either. i made the mistake 1 too many times, and i don't want to let anyone else down. best case scenario, i make 1 last game, just for fun. no deadlines, no help, just me. i think i tried to grow too fast to early, and that led to me burning myself out. but if i could finish one more game, it'd probably be... i don't know actually. i guess we'll see. if we get to that point even. anyways, thank. thanks to my followers, my friends, and anyone else i've interacted with on this platform. you guys truly did keep me going for stretches. probably why i lasted this long in the first place. but i feel like that's just not enough anymore, tbh. i don't have the same satisfaction i used to after finishing a project, or a little feature or level or whatever. i don't feel like it matters anymore. one thing i will say is if i don't end up sharing another game again, i will at least post the last version of my last games. i think i owe the community that. i think me holding the game back will be more torturous than me leaving. i'd hate to leave without at least giving you guys a chance to continue what i lost the drive to finish. so... um... bye ig. thanks. for everything. if u start crying your g-
