warning: there's a bit of a dodgy scene, including the same character from the previous chapter. also, a lot of drama... :) quick note: the fight club, along with alex g is quoted in this. enjoy. ♥ '...it's just one more reason to control myself, it's what i do, i wait for you...' I haven't talked to Leo OR Saksh in months. I think I'm becoming a bit of a hermit, but it's not really my fault... I'm, just, sort of waiting for Leo to talk to me. I know that's stupid because it was MY fault so I should reach out to him... ...but it's sort of hard with the batsh_t guard-dog that Saksh tries to be. Endearing, but annoying. I can't even look at Leo without him glaring daggers into me. Wait, it'd be funny if he had fostered a crush on Leo the entire time- no, it's not possible. Whatever... So, considering it's been months, I'm sort of scared because if Saksh hates me, for, like... FOREVER, I'm not going to have anyone to talk to over the summer in Germany except for my brother. And I'm pretty sure my older brother has a rugby match. I'm trying to avoid them since I don't want the annoying guard-dog to chase me down if I just look at Leo... ...but, then, oh, Mr. Highness is here. He's awfully annoying today, right before my summer holidays. And to think I'll be seeing him for the rest of June. Isn't that a horrendous thought. And Leo, obviously, goes to France for the holidays where his dad's mum is. I won't see him until August, that is. I'm counting the days, if I'm frank. But, it's not even holidays yet because this annoying bloke is yelling in my ear. I inhale sharply, before hissing, "just shut up you a__hole!" Saksh didn't even know the whole story. Why- why'd he have a right to just judge me? Saksh didn't even respond, he was just... sitting with that same stern gaze on his face. "Sam, stop ignoring me," I frown. Saksh is ignoring me, and it's awfully annoying. He's a bit of a b_st_rd for assuming things without even KNOWING what happened. "You don't know the whole story..." "You treat Leo like sh_t, I think I have a right to ignore you," if he wants to ignore me, he's not doing it right. There's an angry look in his eyes. Then, he adds, "plus, you BROKE Leo's heart. You deserve to be ignored." "You don't even know what happened!" I want to yell at him. I want to tell him all the things that happened, but I realise those words provoked him. There's that knot in my stomach, and before I knew it, my nose was gushing with blood. "What the heII!" there's a stinging in my eye and I feel tears overwhelm me. Why didn't I dodge? Why didn't I fight back- I'm SUCH AN IDIOT! ...Mr. Hero Complex looks back at me with a flash of guilt in his eyes, but it soon recovers with immense hatred. I think... I, just, I- I started laughing. Maybe everything would go back to normal. And I just laughed, thinking we'd return to normal. Thinking it was what friends did. But Saksh and I were never friends. So we never returned back to normal. I go back into the washroom. Maybe this was the place that signified both the start and the end of my friendship with Saksh and Leo. I also hear someone follow me in, and my eyes immediately narrow as I notice it's Kaminski. Why can't she just leave me ALONE? "...Flipendo," I say with a flick of my wand. If anyone saw, so be it. I was just done with her at this point. Freya fell with a scream, and I narrowed my eyes. I just wanted to get rid of her. Rid of this blot in my life. I see a shadow in the doorway, but I couldn't care less. I just, I- I needed to get stop her from talking to me. I place my wand back into my pocket, and look for the shadow. Leo? Wha- what was he doing here? "...why'd you do that to her?" I wanted to cry. Why is he asking me these moral questions? I HAD A REASON. And Leo shouldn't know. Leo shouldn't know that it was my fault, too. "I thought you-" "...you thought wrong," my voice felt like breaking. "Leo- I... it was always my fault. I told her to stop, but- but she wouldn't listen. I should've fought back harder, and-" I always remembered this part wrong. But he pulled me into a hug, and I buried my face into his shoulder. It was always easier because I was usually the one crying or angry at people. And there Leo would be. Mediating everything. "No... it's fine, trust me, Link." And with that... I earned forgiveness. I don't think I deserved it, because there was still that guilty twist in my gut... but he forgave me. He saw something to forgive me for. And, I feel like I'm in debt. "...you don't have to say 'I love you' back," Leo started, before repeating, "but I love you, okay? And I know we, like, got into a relationship during a weird time of our lives, but-" ♥ credit to and for letting me use their character <3 The usual; background characters are owned by me and my friends. I'd like to explain if you want to know more about them.
