I've been hesitant to post a vent about this, because I'm probably just being stupid. Feel free to ignore this. <3 So many people have become dear to me while I've been here, and all of a sudden, they've just moved on. No warning, no explanation. It seems like most of my old friends can just forget about me, just hang out with their new friends, apparently I'm replaceable. It seemed like I'd be close with ya'll forever, but maybe it was a trick, not friendship like I'd thought. I feel so fricking dumb for believing you guys cared about me. I could disappear and most of you wouldn't notice. Maybe I need to move on as well, but unlike ya'll, I can't forget our friendships so easily. I can't just pretend it didn't happen, pretend I don't care about all of you. Maybe that's just me being stupid, but I can't help it. All the friends I made over time have been so dear to me, and it physically hurts that they don't seem to care anymore. And what's worse, when I try reaching out, when I try so hard to get you back. You act like I'm just some random person, and maybe I am. Maybe I wasn't significant enough for you to remember me, and I'm sorry that I can't accept that fully. All the friend lists I've been removed from, all the ghosting, it hurts. I'm a person...I have feelings And it feels dumb when I add you to my friend list, because I know you don't even care to talk to me anymore, but hey, I can't just let go <\3 I'm honestly so grateful for the people who still remember me, still seem to care, but even that hurts now. Because it makes me think about all the friendships that have been severed. I'm sorry if anyone feels targeted by this, I wasn't trying to call anyone out, I'm just hurting right now.
"Just go, you don't have to lie anymore."
