warning: there's some dodgy thoughts in this chapter: uh, lincoln starts to think of his life in a negative way. quick note: SIKE. there's more drama. but link will be happy, soon. >:) the fight club, along with TV girl is quoted in this. also two song lyrics??? woah. enjoy. ♥ '...are you sick of me? would you like to be?...' '...that i was bad-mouthin' your name ... in some sh_tty bar somewhere...' Well, there's that for true love. Leo broke up with me. LEO BROKE UP WITH ME. And it's funny because Saksh has been blaming me the entire time, about, like... breaking Leo's heart or whatever, but Leo's the one who broke up with me... for the record. I have to go shopping for new robes in Diagon Alley since my last ones, well... sort of got burnt. And I didn't want hand-me-downs from my older brother. They wouldn't really fit on me, anyway. I'm, like, much lankier than him. (Not that I'd like to admit that.) Whatever, it's nearing the end of August... and I have to go back to Hogwarts sometime, so, might as well be productive now. I should also get a new wand. I think my last one broke, or something... I, like, can't find it. My parents don't really care about me, (not like I care about them) but I guess I have to use my own allowance, right now. I'm back in Ollivander's and I don't really want to talk to the man. He remembers me, surprisingly. "Mmm," I hum sometimes at his words but they've strung and knotted in my mind. I'm not really comprehending them. "It's nine galleons," he says. I fish through my pocket for the galleons, and I lay it on his counter. "Thank you," I try to be polite, like... sort of. I know I seemed really mean for not listening to him, but I honestly can't help it. Everything's sort of blacking out for me... especially my memory- ...I think I want to leave. I don't want to go to Hogwarts this year. Everything's going so wrong... september. It's the second week of September and everything's coming back to... well, normal. Not exactly normal, considering that the entire school basically hates me. (Except for people who don't know anything about the drama, bless their soul.) Well, more the reason to d!3, I think. But, I don't want to. Not yet. I still have to get revenge, for... well, this entire mess. I'm in the library, until some girl named Roselette approaches me. I think I look like I'm angry. I put a smile on my face, despite the Gryffindor robes I saw. I also think I look tired... but Roselette's caught on. She's advising me. "Perhaps you should try to..." and the words black out for me. I'm honestly too tired to pay attention, but I nod to everything she says. Suddenly... I have the courage to mention what happened. About the incident. Was I really going to call it that? 'The incident.' That's so funny. "I take it you and Saksh don't really fancy each other?" she asked me, and I furrowed my brows. "No. Not after fourth-year and the entire... incident," I shrug, but I'm angry. I seem really angry- "...he's a bit of a prat if you ask me." She fell silent. I would've, too, if someone complained about another person (who was so popular, to be frank, and regarded with such high esteem,) with little to no thought. I think it's also why she fell silent when I talked ill about my parents. Not really my fault... I just... don't care for them as much. But, then I ask, "do you have, well, any issues with anyone?" And then she complained about Malfoy. And I listened... I thought to myself, maybe this is my redemption. Maybe I can be friends with this Roselette Black Granger? "...yeah, Malfoy's an idiotic bloke," I laugh to myself, referring to Draco. I smile, before telling her, "I should head back. See you?" "...mhm, yeah. See you," she grinned. And it was a vibrant expression I had longed for. A vibrant smile I hadn't seen in months... Maybe I was right before. The end of my suffering is near. But not in the way you'd think. The end of this horrid drama was near. And I'd finally... be happy? Maybe my first true love was just living. Just... being. And if that's not a cure to a broken heart, then I do not know what is. ♥ credit to , and for letting me use their character <3 The usual; background characters are owned by me and my friends. I'd like to explain if you want to know more about them.
