pyrrhic detailed personality concept

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pyrrhic can have quite the complex personality, or just. really deep? this isn't just her personality but also her beliefs, how she acts and why, and just her overall character. first things first, her name. pyrrhic means 'victory with too great a cost', in short, success which is deemed useless in the end because one lost more than they gained. i took inspiration from this word and decided that this would be a huge centre of who priya is. she often begins, from a very young age, to hyper-fixate on the need to simply prove herself in life and win. to fail would be the greatest embarrassment she could imagine, especially after her immense confidence in her victory. unfortunately, as passionately determined as this makes her, sometimes the trophy shines too bright in her eyes, blinding everything else around her. she would take the first impulsive idea that would jump to her head in order to achieve her goal, not pausing to wonder if the method would be too rash. she would act recklessly and sometimes even carelessly. it would almost always be too late when she looks back and realizes, just like her namesake, that she indeed lost too much than what was worth. this might (and probably will) lead to pyrrhic making many bad, not-thought-out decisions in life and heavily regretting them later. this could be everything from hurting sometimes close to her to suddenly change her mind related to a big life path she chose. she would constantly be in the mindset, 'why? what if?' priya would be lost in guilt a lot often and pondering what would have happened had she thought with a more clear head. she is also incredibly proud, which leads to a swelling shame she does not have the guts to admit after not reaching the results she wanted. her usual response to things like 'i told you so' or simply a prod to remind she was not in fact as skilful as she claimed would cause her to snap out and overall come across as a hot-headed, aggressive, short-tempered felidae. which she does become, in an effort to protect her own dignity and self-respect. this often makes it hard for her to apologize, admit mistakes, or open up fully about her thoughts and emotions. even though she can seem like a distant and uncaring person, deep down, she is incredibly loyal. though it might take a long time to open up to someone, once she does, her life will probably be dedicated to protecting said person. priya would hold that person very highly in her heart and even though it would be hard to express her care for others in a normal, affectionate way, she tries her best in her own ways. like not glaring at them. /lh she often finds it difficult to convey her feelings, and at some point in her life she finds that speaking in a ballad of words, contemplating and weaving them together in an image vague enough to not be venting but expressive enough to be soothing, is her favourite way of communication. in short, she becomes quite the poet, yet keeping her words close to herself and sharing them to strangers rarely. she often likes to ponder life alone and conjure random philosophical thoughts, forever questioning no one in particular. pyrrhic carries herself with an air of self-respect and importance, quite clearly radiating her attitude of confidence and ambition. even from a young age she strives to appear as closed-off yet strong as possible; perhaps wanting attention, or simply from fear of not being taken seriously. she speaks with a sharp tongue most of the time and often dances around questions, purposefully remaining distant. her trouble with friendliness is that she believes that if everyone to open up, then that would mean everyone would share their weaknesses and therefore know how to get under her skin. she prefers the quite company of herself or close loved ones and holds her reputation highly, no matter how small. when it comes to her beliefs, this is something that will be decided throughout the course of her life. i don't think that starclan would be something she would believe in, seeing as how pessimistic she can be at times and she would not fancy the idea of believing power lies in the simple, twinkling specks spread out across the night. she would definitely believe something, i'm not sure what, but just like many other things she would not share her thoughts about life (or afterlife) often. at the end of the day, pyrrhic can be overthrown by prospects of achievement for many reasons, from wanting to prove herself to more that will develop along her life. her determination and passion is steady, unlike her impulsive head, but can ground herself with the few felines she holds close to heart and the words she keeps tucked somewhere deep inside her. +