tw scratch might ban me idk if scratch does ban me, thanks for letting me know that i cant talk about my emotions :D so in english class there was this one prompt that was like "who would be there for you if you were struggling?" and that really just reminded me of how bad my mental state is bc my parents usually just tell me that im burdening someone if I tell them ab my feelings, so I usually dont talk about my emotions. When I do open up i feel so guilty for doing so and ruining their day and stuff like that. I've learned how to silently cry because if I do cry out loud, i'll be yelled at to shut up and being told im being annoying, or i'll be mocked for crying like saying "wah wah" and making weird facial expressions. Its really draining because im always told this stuff so it makes it really hard to talk about anything, whether its about my emotions or not.
im just gonna be posting vents here so yeah :,) most of the things that has happened to me I cant say here so erm yeah!!!!1
