life update/dump

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So I haven't been on scratch in 8 months lol but I'm back and I wanna try to be more active. Problem is, everyone I know from my days on scratch are all gone and so I need new friends on here lol. But anyways it's been 8 months so let me recap you on what's been up. The last time I was on here, I was wrapping up finals for my sophomore yr of high school. I'm now a junior wrapping up my finals for first semester. Has junior yr been kind to me? LMAO NOPE. Sophomore yr was awesome, and junior yr is a nightmare. I'm taking 3 APs (AP Physics 1, AP Calc AB, APUSH) and two of them are hard and just in general there's been a lot going on. I've had no time for myself WHICH IS OKAY because I've dedicated 2024 for self care so its okay!! So yea I've entered my "healing era", learning to take care of myself and handle school stress better. My grades are good tho, so at least the stress has payed off in some way LOL. I've been doing lots of research on college and am currently debating if its worth throwing away my life to join the military in order to become an astronaut. The week before junior yr, I left my toxic friend group. I had been wanting to leave them for a while and I finally was able to, and I've honestly never been happier. Problem is, now I don't have an actual friend group. I have friends don't get me wrong, but I've been bouncing between multiple friend groups trying to find a place somewhere, and now my social life is nonexistent. BUT THATS OKAY, because I'd rather be alone than be w toxic people. And my current friends are truly awesome and give me pure happiness, so I'm just grateful for what I have. I developed a crush on a guy at the beginning of the year (wasian ofc, if there's one thing you should know about me, its that I love me a wasian. dont judge), we were friends, and then idk I have a feeling he liked me back but then I think I got too clingy? Idk after some time I could tell he lost interest in me and some time later I also backed off and lost feelings. Don't get me wrong he's really great and sweet and we're not on awkward terms, we still talk occasionally so we're all good. But afterwards I developed a two day crush on his best friend then lost feelings again so ha- ... im sorry for the chaos above. I'm not good with writing things down in an organized manner. bear w me. I also have a wedding at the end of this week, and if there's one thing about desi weddings you should know, its that they are the most grandest party you will ever see. And I'm apart of the main family so its gonna be extra fun. (hopefully, idk bro theres been so much drama surrounding this wedding as per typical) anyways continued in notes and credits