I normally wouldn't bring attention to smth like this since 1: I just found out less then a week ago, and I'm normally really hesitant to share smth like this online. 2: idk how everyone will react. But I could use some advice and/or validation about this, because I'm not out to a lot of ppl irl and I could use some help. I originally came out as a demigirl before Halloween last year and that seemed to fit, but this past month or so it didn't feel 100% right. After some research, and venting about it to close friends, and finally realizing and trying to accept the fact I'm not one solid gender, I found out I'm not a demigirl like I originally thought. In fact, I'm actually genderfluid. What does that mean? Genderfluid means your gender changes pretty often, and it's not fixed on certain genders (Like with genderflux). It can either stay the same for a few days in a row, to changing multiple times throughout the day, and more. It's more noticeable irl, mainly with my outfits, mannerisms, and pronouns. I don't just wake up thinking "Oh I'm a girl" and stay female throughout the day. I wake up often as a blank slate and the pronouns I go by that day I figure out by just talking to myself in a mirror as if I'm introducing myself to someone. And even then, it can change. It's honestly kinda intense sometimes, and I get really bad dysphoria from these intense moments. Ik there are some upsides to being genderfluid, including some hilarious convos I could have with my friends, but I'm kinda struggling with finding ways to at least feel comfortable. I've already got some things (like getting a haircut that's a lot more neutral and getting a binder) that help short-term, but as for long term solutions, idk. So if any of y'all have some advice, I'm listening loud and clear.
