ㅤㅤㅤㅤ⠀ ꯭ ⊹ ◌ trustㅤㅤ﹒﹒﹒ㅤ⁀ episode 31 ˖࣪˖࣪ ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤଘ͏͏͏ ( ^_^)ㅤ season 3ㅤ11:11ㅤ♡ ㅤㅤㅤㅤ/ WARNiNGS :: self hate, eating disorders ㅤㅤㅤㅤ\ lgbtq, deth, wpns, dr﹒nk!g +more ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ◌ "Yuji??" Someone called. He quickly snapped out of it, the thoughts and memories of his childhood that had float around his mind by seeing Jina. Yuji let out a sigh and stood up. "I need to go see someone." He said, looking at Jihoon. He gently put his hand on Yujis shoulder patting it. "Stay safe okay?" Jihoon tilted his head, smiling. He wasn't older than Yuji, but had the older feeling brother. He had always protected Yuji, against everything. Bad memories, bullies and many other horrible things that could happen to him. Their age gap was around 2 or 3 years, but Jihoon still felt like Yuji needed protection, and it was true. Yuji nodded in response, and walked away. All the noises around the atmosphere of the neighborhood faded away, everything sounded silence, and only Jina was not faded. Jina was still looking young, she was just around 25 when she had the responsibility of a teenager in her hands anyways, not many years had passed. "Jina.." He muttered behind her, tapping her shoulder. The girl flinched, and turned around quickly. The bowl of potatoes in her hands dropped to the floor, the potatoes rolling away. Yuji didn't show any reaction. ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ◌ "Here you go.." Jina placed a bowl on the desk. She sat at the sofa besides Yuji. She didn't sit close to him, as she was nervous. She wrapped the fabric around her tightly, looking down. Yuji took the spoon beside the table, laying the bowl on his leg. He pushed the spoon in gently, taking a sip of the soup with the spoon. He smiled. "Your soups have always been good." He muttered softly. Jina bit her lower lip in guilt. She sighed, and gently put her hand on his. "Going to university right?" She asked. Her face was so skinny, and so was her hands, but she didn't look any different from the past. Still those blue eyes and blonde hair, although she cut it short and her eyes had lost the scent of life in them. Her skin was pale as before, and her lips looked dry and peeled. "Yes." He responded gently, holding her hand. "You haven't changed at all? Have you even aged?" "I'm 30 right now.." Jina smiled, a lifeless smile. Yuji felt sorry. She had done many wrong things, but many things for the sake of his happiness. She wasn't a good mother, she was just so young anyways. Yuji could understand her, she was overwhelmed and all, and he wasn't mad at her, just the memories didn't sit right with his heart. "You look pale." Yuji sighed. He didn't see her as her mother, but didn't see her as an enemy as well and still worried for her. "Do even eat?" "I don't know.. I dont remember." She sighed, leaning back. She fiddled with her rigged nails. Yuji looked around the living room, the desks, sofas, hadn't changed. The door's paper was peeled off on the corners. Yuji thought for a second, this house needed renovation. Maybe just a new carpet would do the thing! "This house is so dark how do you even live hear?" He stood up and took out his phone. "I'm gonna help you clean up." Jina was rejecting the offer, but Yuji insisted even more and more. At the end, she knew she couldn't win. ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ◌ "I've never thought about eating such a full meal.." Jina hesitantly said. The plate in front of her was full, the whole desk was. Yuji didn't have that much availabilities to make that of a big meal, but at least he did his best. He made a bit of meat, rice and a bit of mushroom soup. Yuji took a small sip of his soup with his spoon. Jina muttered something, and took a sip of the soup as well. She smiled, looking at Yuji. She didn't see him as her son, but her younger brother. "Yuji, you're really kind." She smiled. "How are your friends doing?" "Jihoon doesn't know what he wants to study., Mihao and Daniel are both moving to Holland to study law, and I don't remember about Chulseo and Seojin, but they're also going to a police academy. Yunseo is study psychology, and Sujin is studying something like oral literature." Yuji explained. He fiddled with his spoon for a while, then went back to eating his soup. "I see... what do you want to study?" She asked him. "Not sure.. I think I'll study history." He said confidently. Jina nodded, munching through the meat. ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ◌ "You stayed there for 5 hours!!" Jihoon nagged, resting his head on the desk. He let out a huff angrily. "You promised to help me!!" "I really apologise." Yuji sighed, letting his bag slid from his shoulder and rested it against the desk. He sat on the chair. "Where are other's?" "Daniel and Mihao couldn't come, their flight is tomorrow so they're getting ready." Jihoon wrapped his finger around the strands of his bangs. Yuji looked out of the window, staring at the blue sky. He wondered, can he gonna be happy again? If yes, why was a feeling eating his insides ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ◌
