Really long vent in notes and credits
I tell myself over and over don’t cry don’t cry I’m going to be okay but truthfully I need to cry it makes more pain on me and I’m not okay If someone can get yelled at and not cry that’s just great I used to but I’ve bottled so much in That when I get yelled at I cry and the person yelling ask me why I am crying and all I say is I don’t know which makes that person yell at me more. My dreams all die I’m crushed I don’t know what to do it hurts it hurts I can’t do this but I have to keep fighting OH COME ON I can’t be that way someone told me and This was the day I snapped for the first time I told them in a loud voice I don’t have to be what others want me to be, I’m sick and tired of others telling me what to be I want to be me. This wasn’t usual for me but i was taking away from my mom when I was 5 my dad and my step mom take care of me my step mom will listen to me she will hear me out she won’t get mad at me if I give her a good reason why I did something I wasn’t supposed to but my dad he doesn’t listen to me he doesn’t wanna hear my problems he doesn’t care what I have to share that’s hurting me he just yells at me when I do something bad he doesn’t let me explain and now I’ve learned speaking up was talking back so I really am unable to speak up for myself which is bad and I’ve also had my fair share in relationships the people never treat me right now I have 1 girl who treats me just right I respect care and love her :) hopes she knows who she is but still I have lots of issues it’s tough living my life but ima keep living till the end of my time I might never be okay but I’ll try to be happy I can’t force myself but let’s hope things take a turn for me
