space / click sappy rant in the second paragraph lmao tl:dr - i love you guys and thank you for helping me grow as a person and as an artist. heyo, so this is just a remake of my very first drawing posted to this account. decided to redraw it to see how far i’ve come, sometimes it’s just fun to see that. kinda crazy how much i’ve grown here, both in my art journey and as a person. many of the people i’ve looked up to as a young’in have long since left and many of them have actually followed me on this account. to this day, that’s still crazy to me. i’ve learned many different tactics and the improvement over the years has been insane. some of my biggest achievements have started on this website. as for growing as a person: on my old accounts, i was a jerk. i was immature and self-righteous, you could even say outright narcissistic. a lot of this was undiagnosed bipolar disorder which i’m now on medication for, but medication can only get you so far. i take accountability for all of my actions since a disorder is no excuse for bad behavior, and i’m learning to channel my emotions in the right direction. it’s difficult and a long process, and it’s taught me a lot. and for anyone in the same boat, i can assure you of this: you’re not at all a bad person for not being able to control a disorder. medication wont get rid of every symptom either and most of the time you need to work on it yourself. and i believe in you. if you need someone to talk to about it, i’m here. but neither of these things are my biggest and proudest achievement here. my biggest achievement is all of us. i don’t consider you guys “followers”; i’m in no way above or superior to any of you. i consider us a community of people who inspire one another and encourage each other through our own journeys, whether it be art or personal growth and a lot of the time, both. i’ve successfully created what i’ve always looked up to. i’ve inspired so many people in the same way my inspirations have done for me since i was younger. and you know something? you may not realize it, but all of you inspire me as well. each and every one of you. you inspire me to keep on going in my art journey and to never give up on what you’re passionate about and who you are, no matter what others may think about you. all of us and what we’ve created is one of, if not my biggest and proudest achievement. i swell with love and pride for all of us every time i think about it. you guys mean a lot to me and we will always inspire each other. with that being said, i’ll continue this journey both here and on other sites. i may be getting old for this site by some standards, 18 in April, but i will stay on here as long as i can. so thank you guys so much, for everything.
artwork: -Sylvurr- program: ibis paint x espeon is property of Nintendo another note: leisure art is really all i can muster up the time and motivation for. i’m on a bit of a design block at the moment, but the promised payments and prizes are in the works. as for the critique project, my old art app suddenly money-locked the animation feature and i don’t know when i dan get ahold of another program that allows it. please be patient; i’ll get it out as soon as i can.
