No SRP yet, no art or music yet, come later, maybe not, I'll post again if something changes. As you probably know, Zionwhirl has a family. It's NPC, but that doesn't really matter! He's going to leave ShadowClan territory, and head for loner territory. It would be a nice day, and they go for a swim, but the current is far to strong. And Great Auncle Jasper to the rescue! Yep, his grandmother's sibling Jasper is a ship cat (they/them) and Zionwhirl will be incapable of going back, having to live with her great auncle for the rest of time, never to come back, lost at sea in a twolegs ship. Anyway, that's what I have come up with with my sleep deprived brain! It's a slightly edited plan I came up with when Zz was a mere 10 moons old. I think I made it almost six months... 25 moons is sorta okay.
So... you know how much I've been saying, "Zionwhirl will live forever!"? Well... sorta! And no. My mental health is on a steady decline and I'm sorta desperately clawing to get help (literally only got therapy a week or so ago, still waiting to go to first session) and scratch is not helping really! But anyway my parents and I found a therapist so I'm good, not gonna vent about non-related problems. I've sorta taken to look at people like Zionwhirl. As merely obstacles to be avoided... And yes, I could change that, but it's just /not/ something that seems likely in his future. I tried and I only fell right back in the hole of killing character development. I also don't feel that I quite aged her /right/. There's something off that I just can't explain. She still feels like a young teen with no idea on how to do anything, when earlier they seemed so mature. And I don't know how to fix all this. You may have seen that I've also been applying for a lot of kits, and then dropping out? Yep. I want a second character, but I'm too terrified to finish applications. I'm pretty sure that I'm just flat out not good enough to win and I don't want to test the theory apparently. Along with the fact that I start more roleplays than I can answer to, get overwhelmed, and stop replying. (Nope, it's not y'all, it's entirely my fault.) I wait about two weeks, then I do it /all/ again. I've done this before, yes, I know. With Flicktempest. And I'm sorry to see another character fall so similarly. But I just need to have a break. I refuse to join TFC again for at least a month. Don't let me if I try. And I'd only come back with a more optimistic and cheery character. Less of my drama filling them. Anyway, thanks for reading, have a lovely day! To be honest, I always preferred reading to writing. I have about a million books to sustain me as well.
