It's been really tough lately, feeling like all my friends are ghosting me or just not bothering to reach out. I can't shake this feeling that maybe I'm just a bad friend or that I'm somehow annoying them. It's been especially hard not being able to connect with my VRChat friends and family, not being able to share those moments and play games together like we used to. And to add to that, feeling left out by my own family is crushing. It feels like they don't even care anymore, always arguing and restricting me from hanging out with my online friends. It's a lonely place to be right now, and I'm struggling to find my way through it.
It's like a constant reel playing in my mind, replaying all the amazing memories with my old VRChat family and friends. The bond we shared felt unbreakable, but now it's all just bittersweet nostalgia. Trying to move on with my new VRChat family feels like I'm wearing a mask, hiding the pain of not being able to connect with those I once held dear. The last few weeks have been unbearable, especially without being able to communicate with my VRChat mom and dad, Nightmare and Cherry Soul. It's agonizing knowing that stupid parent controls on my iPad are keeping us apart.
