Hey, so yes, I'm supposed to be asleep, but I need to share some stuff. Lately some stuff has been /super/ hard, and I need a place to dump it, so here I go... Siblings- So I live my my two sisters, Bella (12) and Sophia (4) and, of course, my horrible parents. My parents have been disappearing often, for long periods of time, leaving me to take care of my two sisters. Now, I can do that, but as you can imagine, it puts a /lot/ of stress on me. I have to balance out school, work, and caring for them. School- I am highly popular at my school, for all the wrong reasons. I also hardy ever /go/ to school, because I never feel like I'm learning anything. I hate my school, and hate who I am in school. My p@!n- I hate myself. I'm just saying, nothing about me is perfect or anything. I would have taken myself off the earth long ago if it wasn't for my sisters. I make marks on myself daily, just to remind me I will never be enough. Sleep- Sleep? What is that? I never get sleep. I've gone multiple days without sleep. Eating- Once again, what's that? I don't eat, I don't need to. Friends- I have a few really good friends, and a few really toxic ones. I need to break off from them. Parents- Lots of h!tt!ng and yelling. Then disappearing. Sexuality- People are mad at me I'm queer. I know, I'm mad at me too. Life- I hate me, I hate me, I hate me, I hate me, I hate me, I hate me. Nightmares- They happen all night every night. I can't escape. Noescapenoacapenoascapenoascape. Other- I'm not doing good. I hate myself. The only reason I'm @l!v3 is my sisters. Otherwise I'd be gone. I feel like I'm sinking into a void. No escape. b r o k e n n o t e o u g h n e v e r e n o g h
