- if you haven't guessed it already i'm missing childhood :') - lmk how i can improve pls <3 'how can i expect to find someone when i don't even know who i'm looking for?'
a rusty old swing set a familiar smell the musty pages of an old book i haven't read in a while. waves of nostalgia wash over me like the tide hitting the shore at daybreak; and i think of him. he looked at me with a smile brighter than the summer sky. no one ever looked at me that way before. best friends are hard to come by, but he always made friendship feel so . . . easy. it seems like the world changes around me, people age and grow but i am the same, trapped in a cage of innocence. i never realized this until i lost him. now i search everywhere. crowded rooms, abandoned streets, peaceful valleys. i don't know why i search, those days are over, gone like my oblivious mind yet i find myself wondering "were you even real?" he always had a way with words that i could never understand. i should have kept the stories he wrote me. why did i throw them away? was he my best friend or just a character made up by a lonely child? either way it doesn't matter dwelling on the past is a death wish. but it can't stop me from missing how blissfully peaceful life was so long ago
