anyone who's here; i'm actually impressed and a little surprised. y'all are hella good stalkers but i'm honored nonetheless. So, i've been inactive for a month, and this is my belated goodbye. relatedly, I'm sorry for all this chaos and drama, it's just smoke and mirrors i've put up so I don't have to deal with sh- I don't want to deal with at the moment. I'm not going to go into detail, as it's personal information I don't care to divulge. if you know, you know >w< anyway, to explain why i'm leaving; i'm just done, y'all. my time here was great, I had such good times with you guys, but I've ruined relationships with almost everyone here I know who hasn't left already. In addition, RD isn't a worthwhile game to play and the politicians (including me) are borderline delusional to be arguing over territory that legitimately doesn't exist. plus, I'm not much of an animator. I'm going to offer some words, don't take it too seriously. or do, I don't actually give a (proverbial) {redacted} {redacted} OwO may dreams guide me while writing this I'm practically having flashbacks, it's a lot to process. I loved you all. still do, really. I think love is the word. yes, it is. but you didn't come here for my reminiscing, did you? if so, er... I don't feel like writing that much. and half of it i'd rather not share anyway, it's better that this is over and not lingering on my mind. first and foremost, this doesn't apply to anyone named in later sections. ...you know who you are. (not you ham, yes, I know you're here. ) I'm so sorry. this is not how I wanted it to go i made awful choices this is not how I wanted it to go I know that tree has burned but ghosts still live there. just not me, and not you either. that smoke has polluted the air, it's not safe to breathe there any longer. move on. please. words are all I can offer you, as always. just move on. it's not worth lingering over. I saw your message, but I worry all the time. you'll get out of this, you're stronger than I am ,...? Vir, thank you for being there. you are a good person. it is painful and numbing sometimes, but you just need to let the bullets in. you can heal from gunshots. turning to stone is a death sentence, bubble, I said what I said. thank you for letting me go in peace, and protecting my legacy. vi, I don't really know what to say I'm just so impressed that you can be cheerful all the time, you really fill a (metaphorical) room with happiness. Styx, you're like, so cool. do what you do best, and; i'm sorry if this is weird; but you remind me of me, once. don't make the mistakes I did. ask bubble, he'll tell you. hamzazouk, you're a really smart person I'm sorry I made you feel the way I made you feel. I've got struggles of my own, don't let the things I say get into your head. trust me, that kind of feeling just gets worse if you let it continue. Misa, ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) 4e 6f 74 20 65 76 65 72 79 74 68 69 6e 67 20 68 61 73 20 61 6e 20 61 6e 73 77 65 72 20 6f 72 20 6d 65 61 6e 69 6e 67 2c 20 62 75 74 20 79 6f 75 27 72 65 20 73 6f 20 66 75 63 6b 69 6e 67 20 67 6f 6f 64 20 61 74 20 64 69 67 67 69 6e 67 20 75 6e 74 69 6c 20 79 6f 75 20 66 69 6e 64 20 6f 6e 65 2e . death, you're such an honest person I wish I knew you better, but I think I threw away my chance. thanks for giving me one, though. and read, I broke my promise. please understand, it wasn't entirely my choice, check your inbox; to those who've gone-- (som, lucidd, paper, existence, dark, scourge, shadow) I miss you so much wish I could say bye see you around, all. - .alkahest.
for those interested: Caroline Katamari Sinner
