@cursively ♡ ★ ⋮ ̶f̶o̶u̶r̶ ̶w̶o̶r̶d̶s̶ once upon a time . . . . ୧ , chapter — two another day, just like any other day. at least, that was how it was for any other person. but not yuying. as she sat in her dorm room, she thought about how many years she still had left to go. only thirty-four years left. when, she wondered, had she discovered emotion? had it always been there? or was it a disease she had contracted? everyday it got harder and harder to keep up the pretense of being normal. why was it that her eyes became watery when she saw others experience pain? why was it that her judgement became clouded when her eyes became watery? why was it that her heart acted on its own when her judgement became clouded? yuying wished she had the answer. but she knew better than to ask for one. if people knew that she had these feelings, she would be even more of an outcast. it was better to pretend that she was normal. even when she placed her notebook exactly two inches from the corner of the desk. even when she sat stiff and straight, her eyes dark and cold. she knew that it wasn't the same. thirty-four years left. until her death.
