Hi! This is a rant song that I wrote to my ex called "I Love Hating You". Long story short: **NOTE: ( ______ = my ex) About 2 years ago, I got a girlfriend (I'm a lesbian by the way, just in case you didn't know.). She wasn't out as bisexual yet so she didn't want anyone to know we were dating. I was like, "yeah, that's fine, you do you, I won't tell anyone." I thought that in a couple of months she would be willing to tell people, but no. I was still fine with it because she wasn't ready. But she wasn't ready to tell people until about a year later when she just started telling people about us without me actually knowing. So some people would come up to me and say, "Oh, I heard about you and ______, that's cool." I would then ask ______ later about it and she would say, "Yeah, I told them. I thought you wanted people to know." Anyways, that went out of my mind because I was actually excited that people knew now. But then ______ started telling people some stuff about me/us that I didn't want them to know. I would ask her about that and she would say that she didn't tell anyone, but then I would ask the people she told and they would say that she did tell them. I talked to her about this and we got that all settled. But I was still annoyed that she was invading my privacy by telling her friends things about me that they didn't need to know. Then comes the fact that she would ask people to ask me things for her (like how I felt about things, if I wanted to do things, etc.). Then I would ask ______ if she asked her friends/my friends to ask me things and she would say, you guessed it, no. So I then asked those people if she asked them to ask me, and they said that, you guessed it again, she DID ask them. Notice a pattern here? Soon enough, she was lying on a daily basis. And it's not like "Oh, I ate a PB&J for breakfast" when she actually ate waffles, it's like "No, I didn't spread that untrue rumor about you" when she actually did. Like I said, this is a long story. Then comes December of 2023. Friday the first ______ comes up to me and asks me if I'm dating someone else, even though at that time I was still dating her. I say no (because I wasn't) and she doesn't believe me. The reason she thought that was because I was working on a science project with someone I briefly had a crush on before we started dating. That's another long story I won't get into, tho. That entire week (from Dec. 1st to Dec. 6th) was torture for me. I caught ______ lying to me 14 times about major things after she promised me she wouldn't lie again, so I decided to end our 1.5 year relationship. She took that hard, but it felt like a weight was lifted off of my chest. Now to a couple weeks ago: We had a dance at our school in early March. I asked someone else to go with me, and she said yes. At this point I was completely over my ex and decided I could do way better. So that's nice. Anyways, I get to the dance and yeah, I have fun. I brought my date and we danced a little bit. But then ______ comes up to me and compliments my dress. I don't want to be rude, so I compliment her back. Then she asks me to dance. It was not a slow song, so I told her we could just jump around a little bit. She didn't want to jump, she wanted to slow dance, but I stated my boundaries right then and there and said I would only dance with her if it wasn't romantically (bc, like I said, I alr had a date *who was watching*) So we jumped around a little bit and then that was the end of that. Then comes the last song of the night, and again, it wasn't a slow song; it could've been a running song, that's how not-slow it was. My ex comes up to me while I'm dancing with my date (not slow dancing, just dancing) and asks if I want to dance again. I say okay, and she MAKES me slow dance. Idk how to and she doesn't know how either, so it was really awkward, especially since my date was watching (who knows ______ is my ex) and ______ is staring into my soul. I let go of her hand and say "haha, I... don't know how to dance." And I just walk away. That very same night ______ texts me and says "I loved dancing with you <3" and I'm like uhhhh thx? She then starts to flirt with me and I make it clear that I'm not interested. SoOoOoOo Idk how to end this, but... Yeah, that's the very short story of why I wrote this song. If you read the whole thing, tysm for hearing my rant, and I hope you like the song lyrics :)
Credit to the person I wrote this about, ig lol. And ty to YOU for reading my song!
