I tremble Underneath my walk I cry Underneath my smile I scream Underneath my whisper I hurt Underneath my laugh My sc@rs Underneath my clothes My br0k3nn3ss Underneath my skin ___ The fury I feel In my room Finally alone I open my mouth to scream Let all the feelings out But nothing happens I bottled them up For too long __ Laughing friends Sharing smiles And jokes I wonder I they can see My act And what's beneath me ___ I smile Say I’m fine Do they know That those are all lies? Simple words, reassurances That I’m okay You walk away when I ask for space But all I want is a hug Someone who I can spill all of my problems on Someone who will not say a word And it will feel like the safest place on earth __ I cry I scream Then I go out Minutes later Slamming my mask of happiness on Not knowing that it’s cracked That the sadness is spilling out And the fake happiness becomes as see-through As glass Questions are asked I go home And tape up the mask Hoping that it all goes away If I slam it on again __ The fire Slowly burns out I realize My hash words To hot to take back Hurt faces I turn and flee Slam the door Scream curses Cry and h!t Losing another friend To the harshness within me __ A fall So intense Soft words Blurred in the background No No No No No The cracked heart Cracks more Shattering I am no more If they are no more I run And jump Plummeting down Into the darkness __ Hot Screaming Blazing I grab what I can and sob My vision blurring As I crash through the burning house I scream as fire drops down in front of me I’m trapped No escape I curl up and whisper *I’ve never been enough* And my vision goes black The blinding overhead lights Mean only one thing I’m in a place that will treat my burns My sc@rr3d skin The only thing they can’t treat Is the sc@rs on the inside __ Time has never felt As irrelevant As it does now Time Makes fun of us Never aging And never shrinking Always growing Never play with time For it will always win Never challenge time For you will always lose Time is tricky Fooling people And helping people You never know What Time is feeling But Time never plays And never backs down __ The soft creek Of the empty chair And the curtains Fluttering everywhere The darkness consuming All the light daring to show itself I creep through it And hope that I stay !v3 And face the d3m0ns Before they face me __ The laughter And smiles That warm feeling Then I remember And the cold seeps in They stop They stare Questions bubble at their lips I shake my head Their eyes land on my hand That had lost its glove They see the sc That were made by me They try to comfort me I push away Grabbing the glove Then running as far as can be __ She tries But is just to weak She works But just keeps getting beat But do you see The flame within? It keeps her going No matter if she can win __ Never trust a mirror For it shows you the outside only Never trust a mirror For it makes you feel worse Never trust a mirror For It might cry along with you but it’s really mocking you Never trust a mirror For It does not sugarcoat the truth Never trust a mirror For it is envious of you, copying your every move __
These all resonate very deeply with me. These all are also MADE by me.
