My Last Project

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Transcript: Alright, let’s just address the elephant in the room. I’m Onyx Andel, aka the persona and person of Crazibot. I’ve been here for almost five years, if not five years because of my old, lost account. I’ve been really inactive apart from the forums, my comments, and the very rare, rogue projects. So I’ll just make my last statements here. I’m leaving Scratch. I'm not going to do it in some form of song, I'm finally just going to up and leave. I made my project “About My Eventual Leave” in October 2021. I think it's finally time I follow through with what I'm going to say. I'm going to delete all my projects. I'm going to stick to my word that there will be no trace of me outside of what my friends have of me, on Scratch. So word of mouth and remixes. Other than that, I don't plan anything else to be left. I have over 600 projects under my belt, and although I was planning to manually delete the ones I wasn't comfortable having, that's a lot of time and effort I don't feel like it should be put into something like this.* I have multiple reasons for leaving. But the main one is because I don't have time. I don't have motivation. At least not for Scratch. I used to love being on Scratch, but now I've grown, and I feel I must grow up alongside my content. If you want to stop listening here, go right ahead. The rest of this is me rambling about the reasons why I'm leaving. *sigh* Reason #2 is that I don't really have a community anymore. A lot of my friends have drifted away, which we can mostly blame on me, now,** so I don't have that many people to talk to here. There are also people I don't want to talk to anymore, and leaving Scratch would just be my best option there. What comes with growing up is that I also want to talk about more mature topics. I absolutely understand that we need to keep this place kid-friendly, so that's why I'm going to take my work somewhere else. Somewhere else I can share some more “mature” work and hopefully not get judged for it. Scratch has been amazing, but it has also been horrible. What's always inevitable on any site is harassment and bullying. I have trusted the wrong people with my emotions here and that led to my downfall. I have also been manipulated by people I was close to. While I have amazing memories of Scratch, meeting new friends, and sharing comedy to the world, I also have horrible scars that I will never be able to patch because of some of the users I have met. People have used me and that hurts. I don't want anyone else to have to deal with what I went through. I've always been a big person on cybersecurity. I have also been a big person on anonymity and privacy. This is also the main reason I'm deleting all my projects.* I feel like I have lost the anonymity I had, and I believe deleting all my projects, if not the ones that lead back to me in real life, at least, is the safest option I have to protect my identity. While I know I’m likely very safe, I’m just covering my bases. To end this project, if you're still listening, I want to thank all the people who have talked to me over the past 4 to 5 years that I've been on Scratch. I want to thank you all for building me into the person that I'm going to be. I also thank you for pushing change onto me. I don't think I ever would be the person that I am today without any of you. To the people who hurt me, in any severity, I hope you got the help you needed. I hope you got the listening ear that you needed. I hope you learned that a young girl can't help you with the underlying issues you had at home. I hope that the young girl you insulted made you realize that you might need some help yourself. I hope you're doing great now.*** To anyone who's listening this far, I just want to tell you to be safe. Don't share too much information about yourself and know that there are some amazing people here on Scratch, but also know that there are also the same number of horrible people who can hurt you. So this is goodbye. This has been my last project.