I am beyond frustrated and fed up with the constant bullying and rudeness I've been experiencing because of my new gender identity and other aspects of who I am. Scratch was supposed to be a safe place, a sanctuary where I could escape from the hardships of my home life and school. I had hoped it would be similar to VRChat, where I found solace in the company of kind-hearted individuals. While I have indeed encountered many wonderful people on Scratch, the presence of so many rude and insensitive individuals has tainted my experience. Every time I log on, it feels like I'm walking into a battlefield, constantly on guard against the hurtful remarks and actions of others. It's exhausting, draining, and frankly, unfair. I thought Scratch could be my new safe space, a place where I could express myself freely without fear of judgment or ridicule. But instead, it's become just another source of stress and anxiety in my already overwhelming life. And it's not just me who's suffering. My girlfriend, who deserves nothing but love and respect, has also become a target for these bullies. Seeing her subjected to such cruelty only adds to my frustration and anger. I want nothing more than to protect her, but it feels like I'm fighting a losing battle against the relentless tide of negativity. I've tried to hang on, to push through the pain and continue engaging with the Scratch community, but some days, it just feels like too much. I find myself on the brink of giving up, of walking away from it all and never looking back. But then I think about all the kind-hearted friends I've made, the ones who have supported me through thick and thin, and I can't bear the thought of letting them down. I know I've made mistakes along the way, hurtful things said or done in the heat of the moment. But I never meant to drag my friends into the drama, to burden them with my struggles. I only wanted to find a place where I could belong, where I could be myself without fear or shame. So here I am, pouring my heart out in this rant, hoping that someone out there will understand, will offer a kind word or a sympathetic ear. I don't know what the future holds for me on Scratch, but I refuse to let the bullies win. I will continue to fight for my right to exist, to be seen and accepted for who I truly am. And maybe, just maybe, Scratch can still become the safe space I so desperately need. But for now, I'll take it one day at a time, leaning on my friends for support and finding strength in the knowledge that I am not alone in this struggle. And who knows, maybe someday soon, the tide will turn, and Scratch will once again become the welcoming community it was always meant to be.
